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lol. someone commented something to the effect of "update already". i dont know who, but it was slightly funny. i smiled. anyways, here goes. erin and i broke up. not new news. i dont remember when, sometime in november. once again, single on christmas. *shrugs* im sure it isnt that great anyways. been doing alot of thinking lately...and talking to certain people. mostly jason. he is a good guy to talk to, and well, just a good guy in general. went to new york last weekend, which was quite enjoyable. im pretty dissatisfied with life. i found that the only time i am really content with myself and the situations i am in is when im on the road, away from home. i realized that while i was driving to new york, i was the happiest i had been since erin and i had broken up. with good friends, driving somewhere not too close. just all around a good feeling. as far as being dissatisfied goes, well...i basically just dont like who i have become. *nods* seems like the best way to put it. it isnt like im freaked out and hate myself. im actually pretty indifferent. but i see indifference as a problem, which must have a remedy. meh...maybe life just gets more and more unsatisfying the older you get? or maybe im just doing a really good job at screwing it up. i suppose part of the problem is that i have no real job that takes up any time. i work at whitetail, and i was doing construction, but i kinda fucked that up. i feel bad. not bad enough though. been a long time since i have posted in here...2 months almost. anyways, i suppose thats all for now. hopefully remember to post again soon.