Recreating me.....again.....*sigh*
Rather than rambling again about how much I hate people....everyone I hate already knows I hate them, I've decided to dwell on some of the more positive aspects of my life and hope it doesn't depress me how thin the list is.
1. I have finally begun to re-establish my sense of self, ya know that identity thingy that between my marraige and the army almost got obliterated.
2. I have begun to establish myself in my career as someone with talent and drive.
3. I have real honest to god friends... a few anyway.
There was my happy thought for the month.
I am a person in my own right. Thats hard to remember sometimes. No matter what bad shit happens to me, I always survive, not happily or easily but I always do.
I let other people run my life for me for so long its hard to pick it up and figure out how it works again. I have something few people my age have. I have a career, I'm working on my degree, and I DON'T HAVE ANY HELP! For the most part I do it myself and I like it that way. I forgot that I liked doing things for myself, not relying on anyone else for stuff. Certain PEOPLE in my life enforced a kind of dependance on them, and my dumb ass let them. For those people, I am perfectly capable of taking care of myself and I don't need you anymore. I'm sorry I ever let someone else turn me into something I hated. Useless. Worthless. Not to mention the worst by far, a victim.
My quote for the day is from a very unusual spy.
"I will defend myself, but if I should fall, it will be with a smile of profound contempt." -Mata Hari
1. I have finally begun to re-establish my sense of self, ya know that identity thingy that between my marraige and the army almost got obliterated.
2. I have begun to establish myself in my career as someone with talent and drive.
3. I have real honest to god friends... a few anyway.
There was my happy thought for the month.
I am a person in my own right. Thats hard to remember sometimes. No matter what bad shit happens to me, I always survive, not happily or easily but I always do.
I let other people run my life for me for so long its hard to pick it up and figure out how it works again. I have something few people my age have. I have a career, I'm working on my degree, and I DON'T HAVE ANY HELP! For the most part I do it myself and I like it that way. I forgot that I liked doing things for myself, not relying on anyone else for stuff. Certain PEOPLE in my life enforced a kind of dependance on them, and my dumb ass let them. For those people, I am perfectly capable of taking care of myself and I don't need you anymore. I'm sorry I ever let someone else turn me into something I hated. Useless. Worthless. Not to mention the worst by far, a victim.
My quote for the day is from a very unusual spy.
"I will defend myself, but if I should fall, it will be with a smile of profound contempt." -Mata Hari