I sense a great deal of anger in this one
wow. i just reread my last post and realized it was a lot more harsh and angry than i really thought it would be. not that i really regret it though. though before anyone guesses otherwise, its pretty much directed at me and solely me. self-loathing. nothing new there.
if nothing else, id love to try and work on that in the coming year, but that means getting off my rear and making myself feel like i accomplished something. though that is the trick isnt it?
well, jumping subjects, as im prone to do. yule came and went, presents were traded. some people were happy with my gifts, a few people werent. (and that bums me out. i like getting gifts, but i seriously love the expression on someone's face when i give them something theyre going to really appreciate. ) example: i gave brother dan the Calvin & Hobbes HC set. he giggled madly and has been reading them ever since. so... a good gift. dad: gave him the Battlefield PC CD set, and he's still digging through the rulebook with an almost equal mad kind of glee. yea, i like getting stuff. who the hell doesnt. BUT, it goes to the self-esteem bit that someone enjoys what i get for them. its why i dont like giving cash and gift certs. (mind you, thats just ME. im stupid like that)
and on the gift getting end. got an xbox, halo 1, and the DVD rig. beard trimmer and a couple books, it was about it. got some other stuff, but thats whats stuck out in my mind. especially now that im capable of eventually grabbing a copy of xbox live and going toe to toe with other fanatics. (hehe)
*sigh* i done did the drinking thing again, i was busy doing my bit and thinking about the past and regrets and...
yeah.
you get the idea.
k, im gonna go back to watching my newly acquired SG1 season 3 and try to forget a lot of regrets. sadly, i think im gonna need a lot more liquor, and something a lot more warm and vibrant.
ich, that was bad even for me.
later folks. and enjoy the new year.
if nothing else, id love to try and work on that in the coming year, but that means getting off my rear and making myself feel like i accomplished something. though that is the trick isnt it?
well, jumping subjects, as im prone to do. yule came and went, presents were traded. some people were happy with my gifts, a few people werent. (and that bums me out. i like getting gifts, but i seriously love the expression on someone's face when i give them something theyre going to really appreciate. ) example: i gave brother dan the Calvin & Hobbes HC set. he giggled madly and has been reading them ever since. so... a good gift. dad: gave him the Battlefield PC CD set, and he's still digging through the rulebook with an almost equal mad kind of glee. yea, i like getting stuff. who the hell doesnt. BUT, it goes to the self-esteem bit that someone enjoys what i get for them. its why i dont like giving cash and gift certs. (mind you, thats just ME. im stupid like that)
and on the gift getting end. got an xbox, halo 1, and the DVD rig. beard trimmer and a couple books, it was about it. got some other stuff, but thats whats stuck out in my mind. especially now that im capable of eventually grabbing a copy of xbox live and going toe to toe with other fanatics. (hehe)
*sigh* i done did the drinking thing again, i was busy doing my bit and thinking about the past and regrets and...
yeah.
you get the idea.
k, im gonna go back to watching my newly acquired SG1 season 3 and try to forget a lot of regrets. sadly, i think im gonna need a lot more liquor, and something a lot more warm and vibrant.
ich, that was bad even for me.
later folks. and enjoy the new year.