Winter Depression
its here, its hit, its hard.
and if the journals ive been reading are any indication (whoo boy!) we are all collective two steps away from being full blown alcoholics! or that were going to grab fully automatic weapons and climb up the nearest belltower and have at the christmas shopping public.
sad enough i understand it. im in a funk of my own. the whole month long NaNoWriMo crapped out for me, kept scrapping what i wrote. didnt like one thing after the other. notes and outlines up the yin-yang. but nothing good came sputtering out. im taking the next week to examine and do it properly, then im gonna try doing the book anyway!
literally.. TO-NIGHT... i have found out... that a friend of mine is not only getting married... but is with spawn. and on top of other thoughts that brings, serious fucking depression is one of them. dont get me wrong, its all good for her, but like i said, with everything the way its been lately, doors wide open and not stopping.
so, now im off to adjourn with other at HoJo for early mornin munchies. drown our sorrows over cheese fries or old french toast and coffee. either way...
better than i am now, right?
to all friends, i say that it will get better. i say we SHOULD all of us get together, drink and make merry. if for no other reason, than to tell the depression to go take a flying fucking leap.
and to make us feel better for JUST that much longer.
even if you cant be together in flesh, do it in spirit and around midnight tomorrow get off your ass, grab a drink and toast the people who dont piss you off. For me... thats you folks.
There. vented and patched.
for now.
and if the journals ive been reading are any indication (whoo boy!) we are all collective two steps away from being full blown alcoholics! or that were going to grab fully automatic weapons and climb up the nearest belltower and have at the christmas shopping public.
sad enough i understand it. im in a funk of my own. the whole month long NaNoWriMo crapped out for me, kept scrapping what i wrote. didnt like one thing after the other. notes and outlines up the yin-yang. but nothing good came sputtering out. im taking the next week to examine and do it properly, then im gonna try doing the book anyway!
literally.. TO-NIGHT... i have found out... that a friend of mine is not only getting married... but is with spawn. and on top of other thoughts that brings, serious fucking depression is one of them. dont get me wrong, its all good for her, but like i said, with everything the way its been lately, doors wide open and not stopping.
so, now im off to adjourn with other at HoJo for early mornin munchies. drown our sorrows over cheese fries or old french toast and coffee. either way...
better than i am now, right?
to all friends, i say that it will get better. i say we SHOULD all of us get together, drink and make merry. if for no other reason, than to tell the depression to go take a flying fucking leap.
and to make us feel better for JUST that much longer.
even if you cant be together in flesh, do it in spirit and around midnight tomorrow get off your ass, grab a drink and toast the people who dont piss you off. For me... thats you folks.
There. vented and patched.
for now.