brief update
once more it seems ive hiatused from updating me journal. half because im not sure whose reading it anymore, and the other half because im not all that sure what to be putting into it.
still, i didnt start this thing because i thought itd be posted everywhere, i wrote to rant and rant to write. so the insanity continues.
and now its literally 10 days into the whole Nanowrimo thing and im still stuck on the story. i have done as much prep work on this story in the two months leading up to the event, plus what ive been doing the past few days is near equal what ive done on most of my other stories (Nitestar the one, BIG notable exception) and yet somehow... still stuck at the start. i have written, and rewritten the opening five pages about a dozen times and i kick myself each time i restart cause i reread it and realize that im not happy with what i wrote. yea, thats new. sucks though.
the only interesting parts ive got are whats happening in the lives of other firneds, and realizing im slowly cutting myself off from them. i do realize i need to go out more, but no cash + no car + no clue where to go kinda suck. most places id go to hang out, half tend to point to the idea youre hanging out with someone, the other half... SSDD. some peoples doing good, others not so much. me? im about ready to shoot myself cause im sick of waiting. planning, and waiting, and prepping and waiting some more...
yea, so if you cant tell im stressed and a bit on the hoppity mad side... there, i just spelled it out for you. :p
im going to go dig a big hole, crawl in with all my notes and several bottles of liquor and hope i can come out with something decent. with any luck, my goal is to try and smack to the 30000 words instead of 50000 by the end of the month.
For those friends ive not seen, heard from, or anything in the gods know how many moons... "Be well, and hope to the Gods we'll meet again."
yea, so from toon town, *signing out*
still, i didnt start this thing because i thought itd be posted everywhere, i wrote to rant and rant to write. so the insanity continues.
and now its literally 10 days into the whole Nanowrimo thing and im still stuck on the story. i have done as much prep work on this story in the two months leading up to the event, plus what ive been doing the past few days is near equal what ive done on most of my other stories (Nitestar the one, BIG notable exception) and yet somehow... still stuck at the start. i have written, and rewritten the opening five pages about a dozen times and i kick myself each time i restart cause i reread it and realize that im not happy with what i wrote. yea, thats new. sucks though.
the only interesting parts ive got are whats happening in the lives of other firneds, and realizing im slowly cutting myself off from them. i do realize i need to go out more, but no cash + no car + no clue where to go kinda suck. most places id go to hang out, half tend to point to the idea youre hanging out with someone, the other half... SSDD. some peoples doing good, others not so much. me? im about ready to shoot myself cause im sick of waiting. planning, and waiting, and prepping and waiting some more...
yea, so if you cant tell im stressed and a bit on the hoppity mad side... there, i just spelled it out for you. :p
im going to go dig a big hole, crawl in with all my notes and several bottles of liquor and hope i can come out with something decent. with any luck, my goal is to try and smack to the 30000 words instead of 50000 by the end of the month.
For those friends ive not seen, heard from, or anything in the gods know how many moons... "Be well, and hope to the Gods we'll meet again."
yea, so from toon town, *signing out*