thought.
I'd like to record my feelings and experiences a little more, I think.
I'd also like to start writing more poetry.
I sit solemn
one leg up, in this uncomfortable chair
"I was having an experience"
snow road up a hill, white building with a door to the side
back, there in
my head
dusty metal cords are pecked by keys
Vibration
brown hair is unkempt
my chest feels expanded by sensation,
head slightly altered by a flood
interruption! voices, bagels, laundry, and rabbits!
I have discovered an artist I really like today... her name is Sóley, and her stuff is just great... Here's one of her songs...
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Things have been well, I suppose. Besides a minor scare with financial-aid at ECC. I received a letter and call the same day saying basically that I owed them a butt-load of money and if I didn't pay it my ass was grass. Well... turns out they were wrong. Although for a brief moment my pell status was written as denied, apparently so was every single other students... so you can bet they had those poor folks at the bursar's office call every single student and tell them this. What a waste of time... Anyhoo, the next day when I went down to fix things up it was already all fixed... :P
Things with Michael and I have been sailing smoothly :) We are thinking of seeing if we can buy this house together... it's just an idea we are toying with, though.... but it seems possible. It's only 10,000! It's a fixer upper for sure, but we could save money for that :) and learn to do what we don't know how to...
School also went pretty well... I got all A's and B's... while that's not all A's, I don't mind because it's the best I've ever done in school since... second or third grade? It's only because this is the first time since then that I actually cared about school... not that I didn't like it, but it's just that it was something I was made to do instead of chose to do. I am responsible for myself, so it matter more to me now... And I think since I have a bit more perspective and direction inside of me, it's important to me that I am successful.
Today was a nice day for me. I just relaxed and gave myself some time to be introspective about things. Tomorrow, I'm going over to my sister Sarah's to help her around the house and maybe we'll go out for job apps. I had a really good talk with her about things last night, and I feel like I may have really gotten through to her on some things... She's just so focused on being hurt and staying hurt or resisting it, instead of just accepting the pain for what it is and making an attempt to move on... But I feel like in a way some of what I said got through. She's the type that needs to sleep on things, no matter what it is.
Well, I'm headed off to read, and sleep. Night, world. ;)