hello, hello~
i can hear some of the most beautiful piano playing coming from the bedroom... i wonder if it's michael's playing? it sounds like him.
very soon i move into my new apartment.
new life. new purpose.
i'm frightened. each step i'm taking is completely new. I will miss him so much, but i am so weary to be alone that while i dread it's approach, it can't come quickly enough.
it seems surreal. i won't have this interesting dynamic to come home to. i won't have a cat, nor will i a dog. i will miss them dearly as well.
i want to create something that encapsulates these crazy and beautiful and sorrowful and joyful and... full two years.
there are so many feelings that i may now confess to, as an adult. I realize now, that there is such a wealth that i may now( and truly, have always been able to) pull from to help others and myself.
i know just the shallowest depths of my strength and will, how indefatigable i am able to become in order to pull through when most needed.
i know now how limitless your devotion can be when you find yourself so utterly consumed with your passion... and where selfishness can inhibit that ability.
this crossoads will make or break me.
"The toughness gained from my damage is unbelievable."
very soon i move into my new apartment.
new life. new purpose.
i'm frightened. each step i'm taking is completely new. I will miss him so much, but i am so weary to be alone that while i dread it's approach, it can't come quickly enough.
it seems surreal. i won't have this interesting dynamic to come home to. i won't have a cat, nor will i a dog. i will miss them dearly as well.
i want to create something that encapsulates these crazy and beautiful and sorrowful and joyful and... full two years.
there are so many feelings that i may now confess to, as an adult. I realize now, that there is such a wealth that i may now( and truly, have always been able to) pull from to help others and myself.
i know just the shallowest depths of my strength and will, how indefatigable i am able to become in order to pull through when most needed.
i know now how limitless your devotion can be when you find yourself so utterly consumed with your passion... and where selfishness can inhibit that ability.
this crossoads will make or break me.
"The toughness gained from my damage is unbelievable."