it's been one of those months
She's all alone again
Wiping the tears from her eyes
Some days he feels like dying
She gets so sick of crying
this is a summary of the past month for me. today being the worst....ever. I had a few firsts today: 1) i finally go tmy journalism sweatshirt! yeah! 2) the first issue came out and 3) i cried at school. (i've done that before, earlier in the year for the same people, in fact) in front of people. 4) seriously injured some people's feeling indirectly.
ok so here it goes:
6:29pm: Britney calls me and leaves me a message saying they don't have my final draft.
9:20pm: listen to message
9:25pm: call britney back and get told she'll call me back
10:35pm: got tired of waiting, decided to go to bed.
6:15am: got up 15 minutes late. day not starting out so good.
7:07:15am: walk into first period 15 seconds late. 3rd time. thank god we had a sub!!!
10:15am: snack. not to bad. adrenaline rushing waiting to get the first issue out.
10:37am: get a talking to for not having a final draft of my story. i had it but kay never looked at it.
10:45am: get sweatshirt! yeah! it's burgundy but it's still pretty awesome.
11:05am: first issue finally gets here. very excited! all of us run out to meet the truck and carry the stacks inside.
11:20am: begin distribution of first issues. made to go with steven, which honestly wasn't that bad. saw emily and marc out. yelled across the quad at marc for not saying hi. he waves. i couldn't wave back 'cause my arms were full of 3 stacks of papers. lol
11:35am: wash hands and come back to an english quiz. accidentally wrote on the test because she didn't tell me i couldn't since i was in the restroom.
11:55am: decide to check out my article that made it in the paper about gay marriage. it's been revised. find the page only to see that there's been a copy and pasting error so bad that 1/3 of my article isn't even in there. kinda pissed 'cause i was really proud of my article and now it's screwed.
12:05pm: flip around in the newspaper and see that kay has written a story on cross country to save my butt. i begin to read and to my horror, find out that she copied my first 6 paragraphs in my first draft that NO ONE was supposed to read EVER!! look at the by-line and she's the only one listed. very pissed. on the verge of fuming. not so much because i didn't get credit but for the idea that she copied and pasted and didn't give credit to the writer. and she's the editor in chief! try not to cry the rest of the period.
12:35pm: tell brienne all about what happened. a few minutes later, marc's gone off somewhere and i break down and begin crying. i didn't want to make a scene so i started to walk away and then turned around to look at bri. she came over and gave me a hug and we went to the bathroom so i could wash my hands. that was really nice. came back and talked to marc about it.
12:42pm: marc remembers he has to be somewhere and leaves. i look back at the magazine and all i can do is put my head in my hands and cry. i sat there for like 3 minutes crying. days not going to well by now. i wipe my eyes and andrew asks if i'm okay. i tell him about and show him the article. by now pretty much the whole group knows and matt has actually talked to me. andrew sympathizes. i've read through and marked the area where the mistakes are and how much of the story kay copied.
12:50pm: andrew takes the paper i have and makes a comment in the margin about what i wrote in my gay marriage article. he hands it to me and says that it's for me only and that next time i write something about christians, i should tell the truth. i read it and brienne does too. we apparently took it wrong as criticism and bri blew up at andrew when he came back.
1:10pm: after being yelled at, andrew came over to me and i talked to him and allison about what was going on for a while and started to smooth things out.
1:15:45pm: i get my official first tardy for history. first and only.
2:10pm: bri txts me to make sure i'm okay.
2:11pm: call marc and meet him on the way to where i wait for my mom. tell him about bri yelling at andrew and then watch him start to walk home.
2:13pm: call brienne and tell her about what i talked to andrew about and things begin to look positive.
2:18pm: mom picks me and i tell her about what happens. she gives input.
3:45pm: i begin to write this.
it's no like 4:45pm. i've been a little distracted while doing this. i've kind of come to terms with all of today. if kay gets crap for the lede then it's all on her. this past month has been constant stress. there have been brief times of relief like at church and when marc and i went out but other than that it's a steady flow. even when i sleep. i get stress when i go to sleep 'cause it takes me a while and then i start thinking about how little sleep i'm getting will effect me. that just keeps me up more and then i end up being exhausted during the day. very vicious cycle. i can't wait for saturday when i get to run around chasing a flying disc and slide into people. it's pretty awesome.
ugh. more homework.
deflated and stressed h&ks,
Becca
pray this doesn't kill me
Wiping the tears from her eyes
Some days he feels like dying
She gets so sick of crying
this is a summary of the past month for me. today being the worst....ever. I had a few firsts today: 1) i finally go tmy journalism sweatshirt! yeah! 2) the first issue came out and 3) i cried at school. (i've done that before, earlier in the year for the same people, in fact) in front of people. 4) seriously injured some people's feeling indirectly.
ok so here it goes:
6:29pm: Britney calls me and leaves me a message saying they don't have my final draft.
9:20pm: listen to message
9:25pm: call britney back and get told she'll call me back
10:35pm: got tired of waiting, decided to go to bed.
6:15am: got up 15 minutes late. day not starting out so good.
7:07:15am: walk into first period 15 seconds late. 3rd time. thank god we had a sub!!!
10:15am: snack. not to bad. adrenaline rushing waiting to get the first issue out.
10:37am: get a talking to for not having a final draft of my story. i had it but kay never looked at it.
10:45am: get sweatshirt! yeah! it's burgundy but it's still pretty awesome.
11:05am: first issue finally gets here. very excited! all of us run out to meet the truck and carry the stacks inside.
11:20am: begin distribution of first issues. made to go with steven, which honestly wasn't that bad. saw emily and marc out. yelled across the quad at marc for not saying hi. he waves. i couldn't wave back 'cause my arms were full of 3 stacks of papers. lol
11:35am: wash hands and come back to an english quiz. accidentally wrote on the test because she didn't tell me i couldn't since i was in the restroom.
11:55am: decide to check out my article that made it in the paper about gay marriage. it's been revised. find the page only to see that there's been a copy and pasting error so bad that 1/3 of my article isn't even in there. kinda pissed 'cause i was really proud of my article and now it's screwed.
12:05pm: flip around in the newspaper and see that kay has written a story on cross country to save my butt. i begin to read and to my horror, find out that she copied my first 6 paragraphs in my first draft that NO ONE was supposed to read EVER!! look at the by-line and she's the only one listed. very pissed. on the verge of fuming. not so much because i didn't get credit but for the idea that she copied and pasted and didn't give credit to the writer. and she's the editor in chief! try not to cry the rest of the period.
12:35pm: tell brienne all about what happened. a few minutes later, marc's gone off somewhere and i break down and begin crying. i didn't want to make a scene so i started to walk away and then turned around to look at bri. she came over and gave me a hug and we went to the bathroom so i could wash my hands. that was really nice. came back and talked to marc about it.
12:42pm: marc remembers he has to be somewhere and leaves. i look back at the magazine and all i can do is put my head in my hands and cry. i sat there for like 3 minutes crying. days not going to well by now. i wipe my eyes and andrew asks if i'm okay. i tell him about and show him the article. by now pretty much the whole group knows and matt has actually talked to me. andrew sympathizes. i've read through and marked the area where the mistakes are and how much of the story kay copied.
12:50pm: andrew takes the paper i have and makes a comment in the margin about what i wrote in my gay marriage article. he hands it to me and says that it's for me only and that next time i write something about christians, i should tell the truth. i read it and brienne does too. we apparently took it wrong as criticism and bri blew up at andrew when he came back.
1:10pm: after being yelled at, andrew came over to me and i talked to him and allison about what was going on for a while and started to smooth things out.
1:15:45pm: i get my official first tardy for history. first and only.
2:10pm: bri txts me to make sure i'm okay.
2:11pm: call marc and meet him on the way to where i wait for my mom. tell him about bri yelling at andrew and then watch him start to walk home.
2:13pm: call brienne and tell her about what i talked to andrew about and things begin to look positive.
2:18pm: mom picks me and i tell her about what happens. she gives input.
3:45pm: i begin to write this.
it's no like 4:45pm. i've been a little distracted while doing this. i've kind of come to terms with all of today. if kay gets crap for the lede then it's all on her. this past month has been constant stress. there have been brief times of relief like at church and when marc and i went out but other than that it's a steady flow. even when i sleep. i get stress when i go to sleep 'cause it takes me a while and then i start thinking about how little sleep i'm getting will effect me. that just keeps me up more and then i end up being exhausted during the day. very vicious cycle. i can't wait for saturday when i get to run around chasing a flying disc and slide into people. it's pretty awesome.
ugh. more homework.
deflated and stressed h&ks,
Becca
pray this doesn't kill me