The first summer update
About time I update a little, since its summer I don't traditionally write in here much. Its never perused anyway so I don't care. A little bit longer and I can write whatever shit I want in here cuz I'll be the only one to know about it.
So much changes in a year. This summer will definitely be different from last. I have a lot of memories that will never die, and I'm working on the forgive and forget. Although its extremely difficult, some people have done things to me that aren't exactly easy to get over. But after an entire year, I'm trying to move on. It's that feeling where I want to be better about the situation but I won't allow myself to.
On top of all the pain that a year ago was, I would be lying if I said I didn't have a lot of fun too. But I made a huge mistake in trying to force something that wasn't there, and I've paid the price in losing someone who was once a good friend. Maybe that was meant to happen; maybe, as the great debate goes, it all happened for a reason, but after this long I still don't know.
This summer will be different...
I still watch the stars every night driving home, but I always remember how much clearer they are in Canada than in Barrington.
-Ryan
So much changes in a year. This summer will definitely be different from last. I have a lot of memories that will never die, and I'm working on the forgive and forget. Although its extremely difficult, some people have done things to me that aren't exactly easy to get over. But after an entire year, I'm trying to move on. It's that feeling where I want to be better about the situation but I won't allow myself to.
On top of all the pain that a year ago was, I would be lying if I said I didn't have a lot of fun too. But I made a huge mistake in trying to force something that wasn't there, and I've paid the price in losing someone who was once a good friend. Maybe that was meant to happen; maybe, as the great debate goes, it all happened for a reason, but after this long I still don't know.
This summer will be different...
I still watch the stars every night driving home, but I always remember how much clearer they are in Canada than in Barrington.
-Ryan