sail on quick. fly past the world. find me a love.
now is what i have waited my young adult hood for. my room, for the most part is packed into cardboard boxes and i am so excited.
this summer was a bummer. i am not going to lie. for the most part i was unhappy and confused. for a lot of it i was bored. I felt like my mind was turning into moosh. I felt like i was going to waste.
i couldn't stop thinking about things that are important to me but are painful as well.
Now, standing on its edge, i know that where i stand now is a wonderful place. I have told many people in my life where is stand on things. Opinions, feelings, ideas... it all.
for the first time a dream of mine that has lain dormant inside of me has shown its face. Through all the times we have practiced and belted shit out. For all the shitty shows we've played and the times when i have felt unsatisfied with my band. I can now say that i am on my way now... to being beyond satisfied. I cant wait to hold this EP in my hands and write the next thing. Its going to be happier. Its going to be angrier. Its going to be more focused. Our hard work has paid off. you will see.
i no longer feel as though i am calling over empty air.
i no longer feel as though my potential is going to waste. I now know how to get my ideas across. it feels incredible.
i hate waisting time. i hate smoking weed. I smoked last night to hide from something that has been bothering me for awhile. It's the shittiest use of time and money in the world. i hate it. if you smoke weed... i know its fun. think of why.
I used to think smoking weed made me a more creative person in some instances... but, the more and more i think about it... the more and more i feel the exact opposite.
its such a bittersweet feeling knowing that i am returning to dorm life- however... now... i feel as though i have supports beams on everyside of me. they arent going anywhere.
i now know how to deal with my anxiety disorder. first... i recognized that i have this disorder. secondly... i now know how to deal with it. i have learned over a lot of time how not take it out on other people. it helps. i am happier because of it. it feels amazing.
i had a conversation with my brother tonight that i really needed to have. it was awesome. it helped me realize a lot of things.
the roman candle fight in alex's backyard was one of the funniest times ever. i was totally sober.
i feel full of exuberance and hope.
i am happier than i have been the past four months... right now.
i am no longer confused about who i am and how i feel about my life and my relationships.
i have a lot of fucking work to do still... but i can honestly say right now... that i can't wait to bury my face in a book.
its the sad and uplifting songs that get me everytime.
if you read this. you probably mean the world to me.
one day at a time.
this summer was a bummer. i am not going to lie. for the most part i was unhappy and confused. for a lot of it i was bored. I felt like my mind was turning into moosh. I felt like i was going to waste.
i couldn't stop thinking about things that are important to me but are painful as well.
Now, standing on its edge, i know that where i stand now is a wonderful place. I have told many people in my life where is stand on things. Opinions, feelings, ideas... it all.
for the first time a dream of mine that has lain dormant inside of me has shown its face. Through all the times we have practiced and belted shit out. For all the shitty shows we've played and the times when i have felt unsatisfied with my band. I can now say that i am on my way now... to being beyond satisfied. I cant wait to hold this EP in my hands and write the next thing. Its going to be happier. Its going to be angrier. Its going to be more focused. Our hard work has paid off. you will see.
i no longer feel as though i am calling over empty air.
i no longer feel as though my potential is going to waste. I now know how to get my ideas across. it feels incredible.
i hate waisting time. i hate smoking weed. I smoked last night to hide from something that has been bothering me for awhile. It's the shittiest use of time and money in the world. i hate it. if you smoke weed... i know its fun. think of why.
I used to think smoking weed made me a more creative person in some instances... but, the more and more i think about it... the more and more i feel the exact opposite.
its such a bittersweet feeling knowing that i am returning to dorm life- however... now... i feel as though i have supports beams on everyside of me. they arent going anywhere.
i now know how to deal with my anxiety disorder. first... i recognized that i have this disorder. secondly... i now know how to deal with it. i have learned over a lot of time how not take it out on other people. it helps. i am happier because of it. it feels amazing.
i had a conversation with my brother tonight that i really needed to have. it was awesome. it helped me realize a lot of things.
the roman candle fight in alex's backyard was one of the funniest times ever. i was totally sober.
i feel full of exuberance and hope.
i am happier than i have been the past four months... right now.
i am no longer confused about who i am and how i feel about my life and my relationships.
i have a lot of fucking work to do still... but i can honestly say right now... that i can't wait to bury my face in a book.
its the sad and uplifting songs that get me everytime.
if you read this. you probably mean the world to me.
one day at a time.