Re: Calm, shhh, calmknifesmileNovember 11 2006, 21:05:21 UTC
Honestly, I think our experiences will end up being very different due to one particular bullet point -- I do experience audial hallucinations (NOT voices) and when you combine that with my anger issues and APD violence fascination, you get 'he says he's hearing voices telling him to kill'. That's what they told Mom on the phone the other day.
e.e
Noooooo.
So honestly I think that's where some of the condescension came from. You were the safe kind of crazy. I'm the dangerous kind of crazy. *eyeroll* In any event, the place I went wasn't part of the hospital itself and I doubt I'll end up in some larger hopsital's psych ward. There's lots of dedicated services specifically for mental health up here. Location is relevant too -- you were in Arrowhead, you said? Bay Area's not exactly a mecca but it's been improving a lot. Lots of individual dedicated places.
And if absolutely *nothing* else, my psychologist will be wanting to talk to me, and they can either set both her AND my mom off, or let one of them in. Which, if things are going badly, will be my ticket out.
And if they keep me against my will in a voluntary admission, you'd better believe there's going to be all kinds of legal trouble when I get out, too. Hell, probably before it if Mom tries to get me out and they won't let her in to me.
The people at CRISIS were nice, organized, and obeyed the bill thing, at least so far as I could tell. There was a strange insistence on waking up at a normal hour and brushing one's teeth, but otherwise... frankly, if they'd had anything but psych medicine in stock, I probably would have stayed there longer.
e.e
Noooooo.
So honestly I think that's where some of the condescension came from. You were the safe kind of crazy. I'm the dangerous kind of crazy. *eyeroll* In any event, the place I went wasn't part of the hospital itself and I doubt I'll end up in some larger hopsital's psych ward. There's lots of dedicated services specifically for mental health up here. Location is relevant too -- you were in Arrowhead, you said? Bay Area's not exactly a mecca but it's been improving a lot. Lots of individual dedicated places.
And if absolutely *nothing* else, my psychologist will be wanting to talk to me, and they can either set both her AND my mom off, or let one of them in. Which, if things are going badly, will be my ticket out.
And if they keep me against my will in a voluntary admission, you'd better believe there's going to be all kinds of legal trouble when I get out, too. Hell, probably before it if Mom tries to get me out and they won't let her in to me.
The people at CRISIS were nice, organized, and obeyed the bill thing, at least so far as I could tell. There was a strange insistence on waking up at a normal hour and brushing one's teeth, but otherwise... frankly, if they'd had anything but psych medicine in stock, I probably would have stayed there longer.
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