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I just let a few minutes pass by watching snippets of One Tree Hill. Of course, the dramatic scenes from my favorite couple would always be what I'd always watch. The two of them said words that could still be relevant up until today. Yeah, now I see the whole picture. He was my Lucas and I was Peyton but sadly, in this version of reality, we don't end up together. Or maybe we could but I say this with stronger conviction that I don't want to go through hell for him again. Love used to be so simple. It used to be that we go together perfectly and try to fix rough patches but remembering all the times we spent together, maybe those patches were never straightened out. I was too eager to end something when it didn't even formally begin. Either that or I was rushing into things or we just were never meant to be. I don't have regrets for everything. I think I did my best and if in the end, it was all I'll ever get, then I'd be happy. The experience has taught me that something in me is worth loving. I've still got game, I just need the proper mindset and packaging to bounce back to the dating world. As for other things, I also realized how emotionally charged I was. It took my favorite couple leaving the show and finding other TV shows to watch for me to realize that there are better things to do other than sulk and relate and contemplate about that latest episode. Contrary to popular belief, my life is much simpler now. My ambitions may be bigger but what I have now is enough. Or maybe, I need a date once in a while to make me see that I am fabulous.