so I am drunk, 6 days in a row

[knife_chase]

but I mean, for real? for real?
Maura is a bona fide cunt.
for real.
okay.
so.
I am glad we broke up, I truly am.
but.
we had lots of good memories.
up until the end we had a great relationship.
we had lots of fun, we had great times.
and, as with all my meaningful relationships, I do not want to forget about the good times.
but apparently she does.
she deleted all of our pictures together on facebook.
and, yeah, I know, she has a new boyfriend, and yeah, I know, I have some girls I am interested in.
but.
I will not hide the past, I let people know.
and it existed.
and pictures prove it.
and I'm not totally over it, and I'll admit that.
but the fact that she deleted all of our pictures just shows to go that she isn't over it, and that she is a liar.
I would never delete our pictures.
we had a great time for a while, and I do not regret that.
apparently she does.
every time I have said I love you I have meant it, I have made lots of mistakes, but I will never deny the existence of love.
I will always love every person I have been in love with.
but I won't always respect them.
Maura is basically a narcissistic, self loathing, unappreciative, escapist of a human being.
yet I still love her.
because I know what she is capable of.
but, you know, she's not worth my time, and she can lead her life at the ridiculously monotonous pace at which she seems to, and I won't care.
oh, fuck it, it ain't worth my time.