Things You Never See
Part of what our every day life is all about is that consuming thought that one day, we'll end up alone in this world. After all, death is inevitable. We just end up ignoring many little gestures - expressions of protection, care, and above all, love. Sometimes, you have to sit down and think about the things that you want in your life - of things that can make you truly happy.
I heard a friend say to me, more than once, "you have to stop looking so far, just look at what's in front of you." I never truly understood what that meant until that thing in front of me, stopped being part of my life. I do miss that. The moments were just so real that I never realized what they truly meant until I lost them. Now, I'm left with no choice, hoping that one day, I'll have those moments back. I see myself always passing up chances just because I don't know what I want. But maybe I really do. I'm just scared. I'm scared to change my life drastically - knowing that in one spark of a second, my walls can crumble down entirely.
I just hope that one day, I'll be able to get out of that shell, and risk it. I'm waiting for that moment to make things right. I'm waiting to be baffled yet given clarity. I want to be able to fall knowing that I will be caught. I want to feel something without having to think twice about that feeling.
To a friend I think I've lost, I'm sorry for hurting you for what I did or did not do. Thank you for those moments you gave me. I wish I've realized them sooner. I miss our connection - whatever it was, I hope we are still friends. I hope we can still be friends.
I heard a friend say to me, more than once, "you have to stop looking so far, just look at what's in front of you." I never truly understood what that meant until that thing in front of me, stopped being part of my life. I do miss that. The moments were just so real that I never realized what they truly meant until I lost them. Now, I'm left with no choice, hoping that one day, I'll have those moments back. I see myself always passing up chances just because I don't know what I want. But maybe I really do. I'm just scared. I'm scared to change my life drastically - knowing that in one spark of a second, my walls can crumble down entirely.
I just hope that one day, I'll be able to get out of that shell, and risk it. I'm waiting for that moment to make things right. I'm waiting to be baffled yet given clarity. I want to be able to fall knowing that I will be caught. I want to feel something without having to think twice about that feeling.
To a friend I think I've lost, I'm sorry for hurting you for what I did or did not do. Thank you for those moments you gave me. I wish I've realized them sooner. I miss our connection - whatever it was, I hope we are still friends. I hope we can still be friends.