Finals Season Once Again
It's finals season once again. I'm still trying to condition myself and be absolutely ready for it. Sometimes, it's not the exam in itself that makes it difficult, but rather, the preparation for it.
I mask it sometimes - the feeling of contentment. But deep inside, I want something more. My life has been filled with regret, most of time, it's because of not having to excel the way I want to. I was so used to being on the top for such a long time. Now that I'm not exactly there, I feel sad. I can move on with my life not feeling so down about it, but I'd wish things could've been better in hindsight. It's true that excellence is a habit, in my case, is it really? I seriously think I'm overrated sometimes.
Now, it's the finals again. I know, I'd prepare well enough to wing these exams. But I really do want to excel. I really want to be able to notch the bar so much higher this time. I really hope I can reach the zenith of whatever potential I have.
I admit I'm envious of people who can consistently do well. I believe much of that consistency stems from hard work but sometimes, it's also because of plain luck they have on their side.
I can't sleep yet tonight. Too much tea. Skewed priorities too as of recent. I must really FOCUS!
FOCUS!!!
I mask it sometimes - the feeling of contentment. But deep inside, I want something more. My life has been filled with regret, most of time, it's because of not having to excel the way I want to. I was so used to being on the top for such a long time. Now that I'm not exactly there, I feel sad. I can move on with my life not feeling so down about it, but I'd wish things could've been better in hindsight. It's true that excellence is a habit, in my case, is it really? I seriously think I'm overrated sometimes.
Now, it's the finals again. I know, I'd prepare well enough to wing these exams. But I really do want to excel. I really want to be able to notch the bar so much higher this time. I really hope I can reach the zenith of whatever potential I have.
I admit I'm envious of people who can consistently do well. I believe much of that consistency stems from hard work but sometimes, it's also because of plain luck they have on their side.
I can't sleep yet tonight. Too much tea. Skewed priorities too as of recent. I must really FOCUS!
FOCUS!!!