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I'm glad to say that everything is completely fine right now. Which is excellent. Although, I am realizing how hard it is to have so many different friends. It's like a balancing act. I mean, I feel like if one weekend I don't hang out with one group of friends then we sort of grow apart until the next time we hang out and I don't like it... Oh, well that's life.
On to a different matter... Things with me and him are pretty swell. He said something to me last night that he hasn't said in awhile and it made me happy BUT I'm so afraid to fall for him again because I know he says the same things to every girl out there and I hate it. It's like I can't allow myself to feel happy and special because I just know [well, assume] that he's saying the same thing to every other girl he's talking to. It's wrong and I hate him for it. Well, maybe hate is the wrong word; if I said I hated him then that would be a lie. Maybe I'm just disappointed in him. mmhm. I decided I'm not going to worry about it. We're just friends and I'm going to try and limit myself to only have friend feelings toward him because there is no way I'm going to let this boy hurt me again. Kyeah.
My tummy hurts because I had to run to class with Fernanda so we wouldn't get swept. GEREOFIWJE. I hate that stupid swept policy. Today, these two girls in our class got into the classroom like 2 seconds after the swept bell and stupid Mrs. Fahnstock made them come back out to get swept. That's so retarded. I think teachers are missing the point of sweeping. It's not to catch every kid who happens to come in maybe a second or two late; it's to keep the teachers from having to deal with kids who come in several minutes late. They need to cut us some slack, seriously.
I have a tag that is really scratchy and it's annoying me. And I haven't been feeling so great today. My side hurt really bad this morning and then it moved into my shoulder which sucked because my bookbag was really heavy and it was killing my shoulder. Now my stomach hurts again. It seems like everytime I eat lunch at school I feel really sick aftwards. Maybe that's because I don't usually eat lunch. Like, when I'm at home I barely ever eat lunch. Yeahhh.
Yeah, this post was pointless, but it felt good to vent :]
On to a different matter... Things with me and him are pretty swell. He said something to me last night that he hasn't said in awhile and it made me happy BUT I'm so afraid to fall for him again because I know he says the same things to every girl out there and I hate it. It's like I can't allow myself to feel happy and special because I just know [well, assume] that he's saying the same thing to every other girl he's talking to. It's wrong and I hate him for it. Well, maybe hate is the wrong word; if I said I hated him then that would be a lie. Maybe I'm just disappointed in him. mmhm. I decided I'm not going to worry about it. We're just friends and I'm going to try and limit myself to only have friend feelings toward him because there is no way I'm going to let this boy hurt me again. Kyeah.
My tummy hurts because I had to run to class with Fernanda so we wouldn't get swept. GEREOFIWJE. I hate that stupid swept policy. Today, these two girls in our class got into the classroom like 2 seconds after the swept bell and stupid Mrs. Fahnstock made them come back out to get swept. That's so retarded. I think teachers are missing the point of sweeping. It's not to catch every kid who happens to come in maybe a second or two late; it's to keep the teachers from having to deal with kids who come in several minutes late. They need to cut us some slack, seriously.
I have a tag that is really scratchy and it's annoying me. And I haven't been feeling so great today. My side hurt really bad this morning and then it moved into my shoulder which sucked because my bookbag was really heavy and it was killing my shoulder. Now my stomach hurts again. It seems like everytime I eat lunch at school I feel really sick aftwards. Maybe that's because I don't usually eat lunch. Like, when I'm at home I barely ever eat lunch. Yeahhh.
Yeah, this post was pointless, but it felt good to vent :]