Can I vague this up a little?
An opportunity has presented itself for me to get back in contact with a social circle I've effectively left. I am deeply divided about it. There are some people that I'd quite like to see again. Certain people that I'd just as soon not interact with again probably won't be involved. And then there's the rest. There's some hefty baggage there. A lot of history, some good, much bad. A lot of issues that never got resolved, that I'm not sure the other parties even realized were there. Going through my old email recently has made it clear that some of those wounds are still raw, and I don't want to get sucked back into a subculture where that sort of behavior is SOP. I'd made as clean a break as possible, and going to the event in question feels like reneging on that. And yet, I don't want to dis the people I do care about.
I shall ponder.