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I am just so uneasy lately about my life situation. I'm about to graduate high school, and my main problem in life seems to be that I don't have any friends. To me, this is quite important. I am fully aware that in less than a year, everyone I now know will be moved on to completely new and different lives, and so will I. But, I've just been missing all my friends, and my old life so much. Chloe's idea, finishing school at Wood River, and actually graduating from there, would be my ideal way of graduating. I want so bad to graduate from Wood River, but I just don't think it's possible. I wish it were. I'd have no where to live, I'd most likely have a job, but wouldn't make enough to live anywhere. Now the summer, that's another story. I can save up, get a job up there, and live there for the summer. But everyone will be leaving by that time. It will be so depressing for me. But it could also be very fun for me. I'm just having a really hard time growing up. I want to be a kid for the rest of my life and live the glorious life that I once lived. But I want it to be now, and I want it to be now for the rest of my life. God, I hate life. I wish I atleast had something else to occupy my mind. I wish I had people near me that cared about me. I could fall off the face of the earth and no one here would even notice. But ya know, I guess this is just the way things were meant to be for me. It sucks, but whatever. If I could, I'd just sleep all my life. Too bad I can't. But, I'm going to go sleep right now. Ok, bye.