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i went to visit my dad in the hospital today. he looked really good. turns out his stomach problems are not colin cancer, but he has colitis.seriously he looks so much better than he did when he left. he had a little color in his face, but was starting to loose his hair again. his skin was very dry, and his lips were very chapped. i surprised the hell out of him though. when i walked in the room i saw his eyes light up out of surprise and excitment. he didnt know i was going to visit him today. but its what the dr. perscribed. really. i am only going to be in school 2 days this week. kinda stinks, cause i dont get to see my friends much. or george. i found out today that one of my friends older brothers died. the clarks who i work for told me the reason in confidentiality. i can remember painting theresa's bedroom with him. i had the biggest crush on him for the longest time. im kinda just in shock i guess. my brother and sister are annoying the shit out of me. they wont stop fighting and he thinks he is so cool sometimes... today i realized many things. i realized i dont like the city much. i realized that i dont want to leave george ever. no matter the circumstances. i realized i really like stroudsburg. i realized that if george doesnt go to prom with me i dont really want to go. i dunno. and i thought about my poppie's death a lot today. today kinda sucked. i just want to see george tomorrow really bad. i really truly love him.