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i post, therefore i remember
It occurred to me that If I'm still referencing this account a decade later, even though i no longer update it...what will I reference a decade from now?
A quick summary of events since the last time I updated: She gave me everything and I gave her little. Our love withstood this unintentional test far longer than it should have, and only in the end when facing the abyss, did she finally let go of my hand and walk back to the path we had strayed from.
I am the same man I was when I told her i would marry her one day
I am the same man who did
I am the same man she gave 3 children
..So how can I be the same man that did all those horrible things to her?
The same man that said I wish I had never married her?
I am clearly a man who has never known himself.
I have been burdened with love and kindness, doomed to be cared for, cursed to be accepted. Now I have destroyed every dream that was ever fulfilled, layed waste to the fruit of my labors.
I have become as terrible as I feared. The true evil that I warned her of.
If I could change once I can do it again.
I will love her, however she will let me, until the day I die. I will fall apart over the years and I will falter (often fail) in all other pursuits, but I will champion my love for her and the family she gave me until the very bitter end.
SHe will know what it means when I say "I love you"