whoa. waaay too much going on.
ok, so linus, kate, lasha, and other people i'm forgetting at the moment all broke up with their boyfriends/girlfriends. on fri. 13th. but they didn't plan it or anything, they just all did it. wtf? so, kate and i have been drunk for like the last 3 or 4 days. i don't remember how many it's been. this is really really crazy! i don't know what freaking day it is!! but we stopped drinking today. we got soooooo sick. and we have both been smoking. that's so dumb!! why do we do things like this? seriously! i'm so... dissappointed with myself right now. it's been fun, and crazy, but i need my life to be under control again. or mostly... and i saw aaron today. he was walking in to work. i avoided him, because i was about to cry just seeing him. there's no way i can talk to him. i wrote to him to say hi, and tell him i saw him, but he didn't write back. which really pisses me off. that's so not ok. if he doesn't write, i'm really going to hate him. he's a total ass. i hate being stuck on him. i was finally ok with the whole situation and everything, until i saw him today. we haven't talked in like a month, and i haven't seen him in like 2 months. jeeze... that's a really long time. anyways, now i'm all upset about him again, which i really really wish i weren't because he's not a good person. i thought he was, but if he can do what he did to me, say he wants to stay friends, and then not tak to me, i guess i'm wrong. i don't know what's up with him. ok, i really need to get some sleep. i need to be able to think clearly tomorrow. there's so much more going on, but i can't even get into it right now.... i need a pause button or something.