Ramblings...
Currently I'm stuck on one of my stories.... the chapter I wrote I wrote with no enthusiasm no imagination and no inspiration, but just determination and I've been blocked ever since... I need to go over it and re-do it . I'm actually thinking about changing a lot... I wanted to increment something but... imagination just kinda went away... To bad to the people reading my story... I do apologise. I just want to write something not as predictable and a little bit juicy and my mind just comes up blank. I had pretty good ideas, I haven't forgot about them... I actually wrote them down, but still... agh! I can't seem to make them fit together! It was a beautiful puzzle of ideas, one that could have been beautifully come together with such easiness but... it's hard (for me) to put what is on my head on paper or well, out there, actually write them down. Obviously thinking about a thought derails a little from the original one, always making or remembering this bit here and this bit there.
Well, it's not the only story i'm working on. I have the LOST one as well, I have neglected. It's vacation time! I thought giving my mind a break would open the writing flows but I've become allergic to going over my stories. Funny thing is, that a story did flow out very easily. Thought of it, immediatly started writing it down, and voila! Ended up being longer than I originally wanted it to be. Still a one shot but a perfect oneshot! And of a pairing or, fandom I should say, I hate! Twilight?! Me?! Please! I'm adverse to that! I probably hate it so much because I like Buffy and the fucking twilight story is much the same and so totally running it. But then again, it's subjected to subjectivty. I am biased after all.
Anyway, unexpected story popping up. Wanted story and so loved story, currently suffering a mild form of orphage. Not that I'm planning on it being that way no. Obviously all this venting is because I'm pissed that I can't write a good chapter and feeel bad becasue there are peple reading it and i'm not publishing.
I'll commit this week to trying to change or at least shape up that chapter and maybe that way i'll get some inspiration. That chapter is so key... I think that's why there's some major blockage going one. Wanted it to be as close to perfect as it can get. Don't want to bore and dissapoint the readers. lthough I'm not planning on something majorly climaxing but at least in some way reach that high point even if it is a little bit. This chapter is key to resolution so then we can move on and on with the story. Just get something out of the way. Get it moving somewhat.
I tried blogging. Didn't work, got tired of it... total time I dedicated to it : +-5 minutes. 2 to 3 doing all the sign up things then alsost two minutes figuring it out, and testing, 1 second got tired of it, less than a second to figure out I really didnt' want to blog or figure the thing out, some seconds to ponder another more to log out and that was it.
Sticking to livejournal. Mind and heart. Althought I do barely use it. I just post fics! Not very good at 'thinking out loud'.
If some you are the unfortunate soul that came across or got to read my venting and totally pointless post, then I apologize and I do hope you hd a merry christmas and so far a re enjoying the new year!
Well, it's not the only story i'm working on. I have the LOST one as well, I have neglected. It's vacation time! I thought giving my mind a break would open the writing flows but I've become allergic to going over my stories. Funny thing is, that a story did flow out very easily. Thought of it, immediatly started writing it down, and voila! Ended up being longer than I originally wanted it to be. Still a one shot but a perfect oneshot! And of a pairing or, fandom I should say, I hate! Twilight?! Me?! Please! I'm adverse to that! I probably hate it so much because I like Buffy and the fucking twilight story is much the same and so totally running it. But then again, it's subjected to subjectivty. I am biased after all.
Anyway, unexpected story popping up. Wanted story and so loved story, currently suffering a mild form of orphage. Not that I'm planning on it being that way no. Obviously all this venting is because I'm pissed that I can't write a good chapter and feeel bad becasue there are peple reading it and i'm not publishing.
I'll commit this week to trying to change or at least shape up that chapter and maybe that way i'll get some inspiration. That chapter is so key... I think that's why there's some major blockage going one. Wanted it to be as close to perfect as it can get. Don't want to bore and dissapoint the readers. lthough I'm not planning on something majorly climaxing but at least in some way reach that high point even if it is a little bit. This chapter is key to resolution so then we can move on and on with the story. Just get something out of the way. Get it moving somewhat.
I tried blogging. Didn't work, got tired of it... total time I dedicated to it : +-5 minutes. 2 to 3 doing all the sign up things then alsost two minutes figuring it out, and testing, 1 second got tired of it, less than a second to figure out I really didnt' want to blog or figure the thing out, some seconds to ponder another more to log out and that was it.
Sticking to livejournal. Mind and heart. Althought I do barely use it. I just post fics! Not very good at 'thinking out loud'.
If some you are the unfortunate soul that came across or got to read my venting and totally pointless post, then I apologize and I do hope you hd a merry christmas and so far a re enjoying the new year!