It starts
Well, here I am. Put a down payment on my car today. F-in ordeal the whole thing was. I spent a good part of 3 hours at the dealership. Could've had the car today but apparently the insurance company checks credit and my credit cards are all linked to Western Mass. I'm not sure why that all matters but it seems to deny me for RI insurance. I think on Monday I am going to try a local agent to get around that little road block.
What the hell happened. I used to be a different person. I used to feel something for my religion and its principles. I find myself slipping. Saying things I wouldn't have said then. Doing things I might not have done. I think there are several youth from my YRUU generation that would agree with me. I act like...like...I don't care. About anything. I feel like I was kicked out into the cold, not by my district mind you but by the UUism as a whole. When I was a youth I felt like I belonged at my church. Like I had things to say. People would listen. Maybe it's because I left (my church) maybe it's because I bridged and only looked back for a second. This has really been bothering me. I really don't like who I've become. Cynical and sarcastic, way more than I used to be. Hurting feelings with the things I say and not caring. Making an ass out of myself and not caring initially but as an after thought feeling like a D-bag. Maybe I've always been this way and have no one around who thinks it's endearing anymore, that could be it.
What the hell happened. I used to be a different person. I used to feel something for my religion and its principles. I find myself slipping. Saying things I wouldn't have said then. Doing things I might not have done. I think there are several youth from my YRUU generation that would agree with me. I act like...like...I don't care. About anything. I feel like I was kicked out into the cold, not by my district mind you but by the UUism as a whole. When I was a youth I felt like I belonged at my church. Like I had things to say. People would listen. Maybe it's because I left (my church) maybe it's because I bridged and only looked back for a second. This has really been bothering me. I really don't like who I've become. Cynical and sarcastic, way more than I used to be. Hurting feelings with the things I say and not caring. Making an ass out of myself and not caring initially but as an after thought feeling like a D-bag. Maybe I've always been this way and have no one around who thinks it's endearing anymore, that could be it.