tis the season

[kmess2]

So i have been stressed for a little bit, but i think im finally relaxed enough to see things clearly.....I love this time of year, this year more so than past years....for once in my life when everyone is together i dont feel like the outsider being that i was always single.....monday night cal and i went to see wrestling at mohegan sun and spent the night at my house.....the next day cal met my family, which meant alot to me......and they all seemed to be trying to make him feel at home...i hope he did....he said he likes them all.....yay:) every day i realize that i love to spend time with him......doesent matter what we are doing.....we can just be sitting watching a movie, or talking i just love spending time with him......i think that this is the first time in my entire life when i feel genually happy with my life and who i am.....things are going good in school, i have the best roommates ever, the best friends, my family is amazing, and i have someone who cares about me.....this is really all ive ever wanted......hopefully he'll be able to come up a few more times during break.....i would love to go to long island to see him....but i dont think i'll be able to get two days off in a row at work....we'll have to see.......i just hope that all this happiness im feeling isnt going to lead to a problem of some sort....im trying to not be a pessamist but im just trying to be cautious.......i am just going to keep my thoughts in my head if any of them are negative......anywho back to this time of the year.....there is still so much to do, like shopping and getting everything ready at home for christmas...but its all very exciting and fun too......

well i guess thats all i have...i should get some cleaning done.......