the things that are on my mind
ok, well i just figured out how to get this to work. last night when i got the live journal thing, i was looking everywhere to find where i write. well couldnt, but now i found it, so its all good. well i woke up this moring at 7:30, and ill have to do it again tomorrow to. it really sucks. but thats not the worst part about it, iv been doing it for the past 3 4 months now. i have bowling every morning of every weekend.when it first started ti wasnt that bad, but now im losing valuable sleeping time! so yeah.
anyways, enough of my complaining. i bowled pretty good for my first 2 games, but the last one sucked major ass. couldnt get any spares. my games were... 147, 126, 89. pathetic, in the hundreds than ka boom, 89. i just hope i do a really good job tomorrow, my mom is coming and i dont want to make a fool out of myself. tomorrow is also the banquet, and guess what? i get a prize for second place for highst hdc series. im so happy. lets just hope we dont get lost to the bowling ally, gail gave me directions, but who knows. i would want to drive my self, but my mom is a parinoyed person, and wont let me. she freaks out just by driving in the dark. and when it rains, oh my god!! i cant stand being in the car with her. so when im done here im going to call my dad and leave a message for him on his answer machine and see if would like to do anything tonight. hopfully ill get to drive.
i wasnt going to mension this but i have to get it out. theres this guy that i met on the comouter, i forget exactly what town he lives in, but i do know hes by glenview skate park, so that should give you an idea. well anyways, i saw his name in achat, and i was going to say hi to him buti had to get off. well the next day he was on, so i said hi, and ever since then iv talked to him. hes really nice, and we have a bunch of things in common. i seem to have a thing for guys that are skaters/goths. but i really dont care, they are more like me than those dumb fuck preps. i really hate preps. most of the guys at my school that are preps, are stupid as hell. so i try to stay slear from them. well any ways i want to meet this guy but im scared. what if he doesnt like the me when we meet face to face. i know im not ugly, but htan im not hott as hell either. when i talk to ppl in person i seem to not to talk as much, and when i do its with my closest friends. so theres a problem there. the other thing is that, i dont know how i would be able to meet him. again about my mom, but this also included my whole family. my step dad is wel... just a jerk and hed probly scare the guy off,than there my oldest brother, hes the protectiv one so you should get the point there, my mom has a thing about me being in a car with another teen driving, so dont exactly know how im going to get past that yet, then my Dad.... hes just really wiered, and heel just scare the guy off just by talking to much. the only person that wont do any thing to screw this up is my other brother. he never what the olderly protectiv brother as morgan is. when we were younger we never really did get along that well. always fighting, but now we are close, we talk more and dont get in as much fights. but he under stands what im going through, and he wouldnt have anyhting to really disaprove about any of this. sometimes it really suckes being the youngest, and the only girl!! if i was a guy, i bet you it would all be diffrent.
a few nights ago, i tryed something iv been thinking about. i wanted to see if i could sneek in and out of my window, and i tryed it. well guess what? i can! but it really hert to get back in, i had the bottom of the window dig into my stoumach. but all that i really care about is that it worked. well, after that i was thinking, i could sneek out of the house now at night with out my parents knowing. they never check on me, so that makes it even better. so i was thinking, i could just sneek out one night to meet him. it would make it fun and interesting, and there wouldnt be any problems to get in the way. this is great!
ok well it think youv herd enough about my scrambled thoughts, so im going to stop talking.
anyways, enough of my complaining. i bowled pretty good for my first 2 games, but the last one sucked major ass. couldnt get any spares. my games were... 147, 126, 89. pathetic, in the hundreds than ka boom, 89. i just hope i do a really good job tomorrow, my mom is coming and i dont want to make a fool out of myself. tomorrow is also the banquet, and guess what? i get a prize for second place for highst hdc series. im so happy. lets just hope we dont get lost to the bowling ally, gail gave me directions, but who knows. i would want to drive my self, but my mom is a parinoyed person, and wont let me. she freaks out just by driving in the dark. and when it rains, oh my god!! i cant stand being in the car with her. so when im done here im going to call my dad and leave a message for him on his answer machine and see if would like to do anything tonight. hopfully ill get to drive.
i wasnt going to mension this but i have to get it out. theres this guy that i met on the comouter, i forget exactly what town he lives in, but i do know hes by glenview skate park, so that should give you an idea. well anyways, i saw his name in achat, and i was going to say hi to him buti had to get off. well the next day he was on, so i said hi, and ever since then iv talked to him. hes really nice, and we have a bunch of things in common. i seem to have a thing for guys that are skaters/goths. but i really dont care, they are more like me than those dumb fuck preps. i really hate preps. most of the guys at my school that are preps, are stupid as hell. so i try to stay slear from them. well any ways i want to meet this guy but im scared. what if he doesnt like the me when we meet face to face. i know im not ugly, but htan im not hott as hell either. when i talk to ppl in person i seem to not to talk as much, and when i do its with my closest friends. so theres a problem there. the other thing is that, i dont know how i would be able to meet him. again about my mom, but this also included my whole family. my step dad is wel... just a jerk and hed probly scare the guy off,than there my oldest brother, hes the protectiv one so you should get the point there, my mom has a thing about me being in a car with another teen driving, so dont exactly know how im going to get past that yet, then my Dad.... hes just really wiered, and heel just scare the guy off just by talking to much. the only person that wont do any thing to screw this up is my other brother. he never what the olderly protectiv brother as morgan is. when we were younger we never really did get along that well. always fighting, but now we are close, we talk more and dont get in as much fights. but he under stands what im going through, and he wouldnt have anyhting to really disaprove about any of this. sometimes it really suckes being the youngest, and the only girl!! if i was a guy, i bet you it would all be diffrent.
a few nights ago, i tryed something iv been thinking about. i wanted to see if i could sneek in and out of my window, and i tryed it. well guess what? i can! but it really hert to get back in, i had the bottom of the window dig into my stoumach. but all that i really care about is that it worked. well, after that i was thinking, i could sneek out of the house now at night with out my parents knowing. they never check on me, so that makes it even better. so i was thinking, i could just sneek out one night to meet him. it would make it fun and interesting, and there wouldnt be any problems to get in the way. this is great!
ok well it think youv herd enough about my scrambled thoughts, so im going to stop talking.