Here to check myself in again
Well im back doin this thing, of my own accord i might add. I see this as some form of rehab or therapy for myself
because i cant keep going round bottling things up coz i only take it out on all the wrong people. So, where do we
start,
well, myself n my fair lady had to end things for the time being last thursday. It was a mutual thing, nothing to do
with not liking each other or not wanting to be together. Issues came up that need to be dealt with so we both agreed,
reluctantly on my part i might add, that it was best for the moment. All is gravy though, we still talk almost all day
every day, just dont see each other. Which i can live with for two reasons. 1. I love my girl more than i thought was
possible. 2. She is the one.
So basically, to get to the crux of it, it does frustrate me alot from time to time, because there is nothing i can do
to help. I know the problem and i cant help. It just wrecks my head that i cant. So what im doing is a combination of
sorting out my usually confused head on here, venting the fuck out of it when i need to and generally making sure that
i dont make a bollox of things with my girl coz i almost have. Frustration is a pure evil disease. And it decides to
let itself out at the very moment you need it like a hole in the head.
Tuesday night, me and anne had agreed to meet up last thursday coz we'd not seen each other in a couple of weeks. So
as it turns out we couldnt, but yours truely got a big why the hell not head on him at the very moment i didnt need to
and just said some things i really didnt mean and really wish i could take back, and generally just bein, as she anne
wud put it, a muppit. Its ok tho, we didnt fall out, she understood i was just expressing feelings and she knows im a bit
frustrated. she has a heart of gold.
So i woke up last night about 5 in the morning, and had a bit of a cry to be honest coz i never had a moment to let
the fact that it was over to sink in. Slightly dramatic i know but i drank myself stupid for the best part of 72 hours
from thursday night once it happened. Not out of spite or anything, just started and i usually find it difficult to
stop anyway. But to get back to the point, i resolved to a change or focus on a few things, simple rules if you like:
1. Act like she is the one, and dont be a child when i dont get my way
2. Adjust to the way things are at the moment
3. Dont let things build up inside that may come out when i dont want them to
4. Dont fuck this up coz i think this one is long term. Would be pretty stupid to fuck it up over something small.
So this is me checkin myself back into the asylum. Feels strange doin this but i really got to do it.
because i cant keep going round bottling things up coz i only take it out on all the wrong people. So, where do we
start,
well, myself n my fair lady had to end things for the time being last thursday. It was a mutual thing, nothing to do
with not liking each other or not wanting to be together. Issues came up that need to be dealt with so we both agreed,
reluctantly on my part i might add, that it was best for the moment. All is gravy though, we still talk almost all day
every day, just dont see each other. Which i can live with for two reasons. 1. I love my girl more than i thought was
possible. 2. She is the one.
So basically, to get to the crux of it, it does frustrate me alot from time to time, because there is nothing i can do
to help. I know the problem and i cant help. It just wrecks my head that i cant. So what im doing is a combination of
sorting out my usually confused head on here, venting the fuck out of it when i need to and generally making sure that
i dont make a bollox of things with my girl coz i almost have. Frustration is a pure evil disease. And it decides to
let itself out at the very moment you need it like a hole in the head.
Tuesday night, me and anne had agreed to meet up last thursday coz we'd not seen each other in a couple of weeks. So
as it turns out we couldnt, but yours truely got a big why the hell not head on him at the very moment i didnt need to
and just said some things i really didnt mean and really wish i could take back, and generally just bein, as she anne
wud put it, a muppit. Its ok tho, we didnt fall out, she understood i was just expressing feelings and she knows im a bit
frustrated. she has a heart of gold.
So i woke up last night about 5 in the morning, and had a bit of a cry to be honest coz i never had a moment to let
the fact that it was over to sink in. Slightly dramatic i know but i drank myself stupid for the best part of 72 hours
from thursday night once it happened. Not out of spite or anything, just started and i usually find it difficult to
stop anyway. But to get back to the point, i resolved to a change or focus on a few things, simple rules if you like:
1. Act like she is the one, and dont be a child when i dont get my way
2. Adjust to the way things are at the moment
3. Dont let things build up inside that may come out when i dont want them to
4. Dont fuck this up coz i think this one is long term. Would be pretty stupid to fuck it up over something small.
So this is me checkin myself back into the asylum. Feels strange doin this but i really got to do it.