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ya know what feeling makes me feel the worst??? Being attracted to other guys.
Most people that read this know how much I love Nick... which is a lot...more than I ever thought I was capable of loving anyone. But in the past few months I've been noticing more and more that I'm attracted to other ppl. I've liked all of them since before I knew Nick...but I just feel like I shouldn't feel this way...and I can't tell Nick, b/c he would be so hurt...
I had a dream last night about one of the said ppl...and it was weird...I've liked him since freshman year, and I see him every once in a while...it's not who some of u think it is...b/c it wasn't very well known that I had a crush on this person... This dream involved kissing...and I woke up thinking that I wish it would really happen, and proceded to feel horrible...
Am I a horrible person? am I just a horny little thing...? or am I just PMSing??...b/c it's not the first time that I've had little fantasies about guys I liked before Nick...I just feel so bad that I thought that...I love Nick so much, and I miss him even more than that...I just wish I could forget about the dream like I do all of my other dreams... gah...damn my mind...
Most people that read this know how much I love Nick... which is a lot...more than I ever thought I was capable of loving anyone. But in the past few months I've been noticing more and more that I'm attracted to other ppl. I've liked all of them since before I knew Nick...but I just feel like I shouldn't feel this way...and I can't tell Nick, b/c he would be so hurt...
I had a dream last night about one of the said ppl...and it was weird...I've liked him since freshman year, and I see him every once in a while...it's not who some of u think it is...b/c it wasn't very well known that I had a crush on this person... This dream involved kissing...and I woke up thinking that I wish it would really happen, and proceded to feel horrible...
Am I a horrible person? am I just a horny little thing...? or am I just PMSing??...b/c it's not the first time that I've had little fantasies about guys I liked before Nick...I just feel so bad that I thought that...I love Nick so much, and I miss him even more than that...I just wish I could forget about the dream like I do all of my other dreams... gah...damn my mind...