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so I honestly just think that I shoudl not be allowed to drink alcohol anymore because I just make the stupidest decisions ever. I didnt kiss other boys or anything, I just made nick really sad and I just feel like a complete asshole. I just do and say stupid things that hurt him and I dont know why I would do these things that hurt the person in the world who I love the most. God I'm such a fucker. BUt we didntbreak up so thats a good thing. And we talked and cried a lot last night and this morning so we're doing ok now. I am so lucky that I have the best boyfriend in the world that will stick with me through times when I'm not sure what the hell I want and helps me to figure out what the hell I want. I love nick so much.
But jackies party was really fun, There was a good turnout although most of the people there I didnt really know. I drank a lot...I decided I'm going to take a break from the alcohol so I dont fuck anything else up. But that just means I have to start smoking more. Is it bad that I just substitute abuse of one substance for another?
I am super excited for emily to come and visit, we have fun stuff planned for like every day. Harry Potter fest, concert at alpine (if it didnt get canceled, Noahs Ark, and the most important, just hanging out.
K, I have to go get ready to go out to Jackies b-day dinner at the gritty. Yay for birthdays.
But jackies party was really fun, There was a good turnout although most of the people there I didnt really know. I drank a lot...I decided I'm going to take a break from the alcohol so I dont fuck anything else up. But that just means I have to start smoking more. Is it bad that I just substitute abuse of one substance for another?
I am super excited for emily to come and visit, we have fun stuff planned for like every day. Harry Potter fest, concert at alpine (if it didnt get canceled, Noahs Ark, and the most important, just hanging out.
K, I have to go get ready to go out to Jackies b-day dinner at the gritty. Yay for birthdays.