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Today was shitty. I sat at Cindy's and she wanted to bake cookies and pretend to be familyish and such and I wanted to sleep. But they had this cat that walks in sometimes and doesn't really live there, he's a wild guy, but I played with him and he reminded me of my dead cat Max. Poor old Max... he was one awesome cat. And yesterday Bart came over at midnight and stayed for like half an hour.. I have not seen him for over half an hour since last Saturday. And those half hour or so days were only last night and Thursday. But the play is over now so you know.. kids can initiate plans with me again and such. And I talked to Stace on the phone for awhile and it was real nice because we don't, well, I don't really do that anymore and especially with Stace and we talked about drama stuff and what we've been doing and the whole punk thing and things not mattering and friendships with certain people that hang out with kids that aren't really their friends when we were always there for them and ignored. Fun stuff. I miss my friends, all of 'em Stace Daniela Vila Krit Jenny Ferris Sammy the P-Ville kids and of course my darling Bart and lots of other kids. The play is completely done and I'll miss my girls and having something to do every day but I really missed my friends and I get to fall back into my nothingness phase. Oof, also on Saturday I had speech and did shitty. But Jenny got into finals in both of her categories and I was very proud. Yay. Good night.