Jan 18, 2005 18:46
I was heading to the car and she was already in there with my mom. i decided to sit in the back with her and just have my arm around her. we talked with our phones with text the whole way there. we got teary eyed and we werent even in livermore yet. the car are closer and we were soon to be further. it was getting hard. it was going to be diffult just to turn away.
we finally got to her door and we held hands the whole way up. i looked in her eyes. "i love you," i said. "i love you too," she said back. we talked about the great things that happened. the shoe shopping, the movies, the food, everything. i kissed her on the lips and i didnt want to stop, let alone leave. it was pain. the worst pain ever. yet...i didnt cry. she cried alittle bit and i was about to,, but i didnt. i dont know why. maybe it was because she wasnt gone yet. eventaully, i did walk away. and i couldnt take my eyes off of her.
i got in the car and kept watching her. then when she was out of sight...i cried. i couldnt help it, i just let it all out. my mom kept telling me i can call her when ever and fly her down some time, but i knew it wouldnt be that easy. and all i could think about, was if i could get one more look of her. her smile i feel in love with, her lips i kissed, and her...just being her.
her in my life is the best thing to ever happen to me. she made ever moment better and better. and she wasnt just the hot girl to me. she was jessie's girl. and im glad i won.
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