Dec 12, 2004 00:14
A week past and i wanted to know who she was. i was still caught up in another girl, but that all went away when i saw her. Then when i saw her again she wasnt alone. she had a boyfriend. She was someone elses girl. i knew i had no chance cause i didnt want to hurt my friend, and she would be too good for me anyways. But i took advantage of her being there.
We started to flirt. first i put my helmet on her, then picked her up and threated to but her in a thrash can. it was nice. but when it ended with the two of them kissing, i wanted to quit right there. but i didnt.
as time went by i saw her more and more. I, the ass hole i am, decided that i wanted to be with this girl and the only way to do that was to make sure that she knew i was there. so i was loud, and i was funny. but i never had a conversation with her.
One after noon her and catilyn decided they wanted to get food, and i did too. so we all went there together. it was really hard to believe she wanted to be there with me. but she did. so we all talked. but i was just so focused on her life, when she talked about it, i forgot she was someone elses girl. jessies girl. not mine. and i really wanted that to change...