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Ok, so after I talked to my brother yesterday went better, I was feeling like myself again. But towards the end of the garden party I was a little upset. I was feeling a little ignored and stuff, and then I just kinda feel apart after, right about when I went to bed. Definitely cried while brushing my teeth. It's just a combination of stuff, but mostly it's that I am super hard on myself, and worse than most people. i deny myself a lot of things, especially being happy. I talked a lot out with my fabulous bro, I'm super happy that we've reallly become friends. Love you Dj. I'm super excited that I'm in my eight week of work whhich means that I have just under 3 weeks of work left. Thank the Lord. I'm ready to be done with this job. 10 weeeks 24/7 with the same people and no breaks and no time for katie is really rough. and I mostly love thjese people I'm working with, just right now I'm done. had my fill. So hey, I'd love to know if you are a person that I can call at 4am if I need someone to talk to. Because I feel terrible about waking people up, and then I just beat myself up and condemn myself and thenm don't call anyone. So I'd love to add you to my list. Well, got a show in 10mins. Love you all, I hope to update again soon. *HUG*GS