Eternal Sunshine for the Spotless Mind
So I haven't seen the movie but the concept really spoke to me... what would you do if you could erase the memory of someone you cared about? Would you? I think I would. It sounds horrible but although I've learned a lot from this person if I had the chance, if I knew it would end like this, I think I would have spared myself the hurt and done it.
I got an e-mail today from a good friend and it really put things in perspective for me. Most of the things I already knew but I wouldn’t believe it until I heard it from someone else. "...there is not one positive thing that you're getting from it. It's just reopening a wound and at this point you're treasuring the wound since that is as close to ---- as you can get. You don't have to read that sentence too many times to realize how unhealthy it is for you." I understand what needs to happen, I just need to put that plan into action. I understand some things better than I did before. I understand that I can’t be fixed, that I’m beyond anyone’s fixing besides professionals, and I understand that maybe they’re others who seem to need fixing and seem easy to fix, and it’s easier to pass me off to someone else. It’s like math test, you always do the easy ones first and then go back to the tough ones if you have time. I’ve sort have reached a point where I need to re evaluate my actions, emotions, and what I really want out of my life.
"I hope your first objective is to be happy with yourself and your life...independent of any men. The peace and confidence you find with yourself will make you more attractive to men than you could possibly imagine. You have it all - all the things a guy would want. You just need to see it yourself and believe it." Oh DB you are my angel, the only one who has truly cared over the years and I thank god every night that I have at least on other person who cares about me in this world.
I just need to go back to school. I deserve to be able to act my age, actually smile and mean it, laugh so hard that I forget what I’m laughing at, and most importantly be surrounded by my friends. Eathier way, I need to move on with my own life…. -god bless
< "How do you cool your lips, after a summer's kiss How do you rid the sweat, after the body bliss How do you turn your eyes, from the romantic glare How do you block the sound of a voice You'd know anywhere Oh, I really should've known By the time you drove me home By the vagueness in your eyes, your casual goodbyes By the chill in your embrace The expression on your face told me Maybe you might have some advice to give On how to be insensitive, insensitive, insensitive How do you numb your skin, after the warmest touch How do you slow your blood, after the body rush How do you free your soul, after you've found a friend How do you teach your heart it's a crime to fall in love again Oh, you probably won't remember me It's probably ancient history I'm one of the chosen few Who went ahead and fell for you I'm out of vogue, I'm out of touch I fell too fast, I feel too much I thought that you might have, some advice to give On how to be insensitive Oh, I really should've known By the time you drove me home By the vagueness in your eyes, your casual goodbyes By the chill in your embrace The expression on your face that told me Maybe you might have some advice to give On how to be insensitive"
I got an e-mail today from a good friend and it really put things in perspective for me. Most of the things I already knew but I wouldn’t believe it until I heard it from someone else. "...there is not one positive thing that you're getting from it. It's just reopening a wound and at this point you're treasuring the wound since that is as close to ---- as you can get. You don't have to read that sentence too many times to realize how unhealthy it is for you." I understand what needs to happen, I just need to put that plan into action. I understand some things better than I did before. I understand that I can’t be fixed, that I’m beyond anyone’s fixing besides professionals, and I understand that maybe they’re others who seem to need fixing and seem easy to fix, and it’s easier to pass me off to someone else. It’s like math test, you always do the easy ones first and then go back to the tough ones if you have time. I’ve sort have reached a point where I need to re evaluate my actions, emotions, and what I really want out of my life.
"I hope your first objective is to be happy with yourself and your life...independent of any men. The peace and confidence you find with yourself will make you more attractive to men than you could possibly imagine. You have it all - all the things a guy would want. You just need to see it yourself and believe it." Oh DB you are my angel, the only one who has truly cared over the years and I thank god every night that I have at least on other person who cares about me in this world.
I just need to go back to school. I deserve to be able to act my age, actually smile and mean it, laugh so hard that I forget what I’m laughing at, and most importantly be surrounded by my friends. Eathier way, I need to move on with my own life…. -god bless
< "How do you cool your lips, after a summer's kiss How do you rid the sweat, after the body bliss How do you turn your eyes, from the romantic glare How do you block the sound of a voice You'd know anywhere Oh, I really should've known By the time you drove me home By the vagueness in your eyes, your casual goodbyes By the chill in your embrace The expression on your face told me Maybe you might have some advice to give On how to be insensitive, insensitive, insensitive How do you numb your skin, after the warmest touch How do you slow your blood, after the body rush How do you free your soul, after you've found a friend How do you teach your heart it's a crime to fall in love again Oh, you probably won't remember me It's probably ancient history I'm one of the chosen few Who went ahead and fell for you I'm out of vogue, I'm out of touch I fell too fast, I feel too much I thought that you might have, some advice to give On how to be insensitive Oh, I really should've known By the time you drove me home By the vagueness in your eyes, your casual goodbyes By the chill in your embrace The expression on your face that told me Maybe you might have some advice to give On how to be insensitive"