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not a good day at all.
--had class 9-950, found out the exam i accidently skipped cant be made up.
++breakfast with angela&alison.
++class 11-1150.
++tanning with angela alison and lindsey.
--showered&laundry
--class 4-515
++dinner with angela
++hung out in here with everyone til angela left to hang out with a boy.
+-+-i left around 12 to hang out with brian.
--just got home.
--still hadnt started my paper thats due tomorrow at 12.
--guess im acting "weird" around my 2 favorites which makes me sad.
and as much as i hate to say it cause i know they'll both read it im just confused with things right now and im sorry if im acting weird around you 2 cause i love you both and right now its 6:25am and your both sleeping * one of you is snoring a bit* and im sitting here crying at the keyboard because i cant tell im acting differently so i dont know how to change and im scared you two are gonna get sick of me and then byebye kim. angela i love the papers you made me im sorry if i didnt act like it.my favorite quote is "its not about who ive known the longest, its about who came and never left my side." i know we havent been best friends, let alone friends as long as most people but you really are my best friend and i dont know what id do if you werent here with me, even though sometimes i dont act like it. and yeah basically i just love you.
and alison fuck ive barely known you a month but i do love you. before i had met you and we had just talked online i considered you a better friend than some people ive known since forever, i told you everything. and i hope we stay friends because youre one of the funniest, most bad ass people i know. and i love you too
++me and lindsey are becoming better friends and i <3 her. shes always making me laugh and i hope we stay good.
--brians was no good tonight. got there at 12, left at 530. sat outside on a bench for half n hour crying. i said something i shouldnt of and it couldnt be further from the truth, and i have no idea why i said it. after i said we pretty much sat there in the most awkward silence of my life and i tried apologizing 380923 times but i dunno whats gonna happen. hes good to hang out with and hes the only one who puts up with all my lame stories that i know he doesnt even care about, but he pretends like he does. and im finally getting over my asshole phase and i like a nice boy, then bam! i fuck up.
--as i was crying a few minutes ago, i knocked over half of my pop and i tried cleaning it up as best i could but will see in the am. i hope i dont get yelled at.
--i still havent started my paper, but i guess thats why i took adderall so i wont fall asleep and am gonna stay up all night and do it. cept now i only have til 8ish then i gotta get ready and eat then class.
and in case i dont get a chance to write tomorrow (friday)....happy birthday carmen. i love you so much and i miss you and i wish you were gonna be at state this weekend so i could come see you because this is crazy not seeing you in a month or so....but yeah i love you and youll always be one of my best friends, wether you like it or not, youre stuck with me. youre my call when im drunk and crying friend and youve always been the one ive told everything, especially if i couldnt tell someone else.
and lastly, i dunno why but before i left for college i barely ever cried. now that ive been here a month ive cried 5 times that i can think of.... im becoming an emotional wreck.
--had class 9-950, found out the exam i accidently skipped cant be made up.
++breakfast with angela&alison.
++class 11-1150.
++tanning with angela alison and lindsey.
--showered&laundry
--class 4-515
++dinner with angela
++hung out in here with everyone til angela left to hang out with a boy.
+-+-i left around 12 to hang out with brian.
--just got home.
--still hadnt started my paper thats due tomorrow at 12.
--guess im acting "weird" around my 2 favorites which makes me sad.
and as much as i hate to say it cause i know they'll both read it im just confused with things right now and im sorry if im acting weird around you 2 cause i love you both and right now its 6:25am and your both sleeping * one of you is snoring a bit* and im sitting here crying at the keyboard because i cant tell im acting differently so i dont know how to change and im scared you two are gonna get sick of me and then byebye kim. angela i love the papers you made me im sorry if i didnt act like it.my favorite quote is "its not about who ive known the longest, its about who came and never left my side." i know we havent been best friends, let alone friends as long as most people but you really are my best friend and i dont know what id do if you werent here with me, even though sometimes i dont act like it. and yeah basically i just love you.
and alison fuck ive barely known you a month but i do love you. before i had met you and we had just talked online i considered you a better friend than some people ive known since forever, i told you everything. and i hope we stay friends because youre one of the funniest, most bad ass people i know. and i love you too
++me and lindsey are becoming better friends and i <3 her. shes always making me laugh and i hope we stay good.
--brians was no good tonight. got there at 12, left at 530. sat outside on a bench for half n hour crying. i said something i shouldnt of and it couldnt be further from the truth, and i have no idea why i said it. after i said we pretty much sat there in the most awkward silence of my life and i tried apologizing 380923 times but i dunno whats gonna happen. hes good to hang out with and hes the only one who puts up with all my lame stories that i know he doesnt even care about, but he pretends like he does. and im finally getting over my asshole phase and i like a nice boy, then bam! i fuck up.
--as i was crying a few minutes ago, i knocked over half of my pop and i tried cleaning it up as best i could but will see in the am. i hope i dont get yelled at.
--i still havent started my paper, but i guess thats why i took adderall so i wont fall asleep and am gonna stay up all night and do it. cept now i only have til 8ish then i gotta get ready and eat then class.
and in case i dont get a chance to write tomorrow (friday)....happy birthday carmen. i love you so much and i miss you and i wish you were gonna be at state this weekend so i could come see you because this is crazy not seeing you in a month or so....but yeah i love you and youll always be one of my best friends, wether you like it or not, youre stuck with me. youre my call when im drunk and crying friend and youve always been the one ive told everything, especially if i couldnt tell someone else.
and lastly, i dunno why but before i left for college i barely ever cried. now that ive been here a month ive cried 5 times that i can think of.... im becoming an emotional wreck.