The Way Things Used To Be

[klrtinkerbelle]

The Way Things Used To Be
By Karen R.

I miss the way things used to be
I miss...
The late night phone calls
The heartfelt talks
The tears I cried because I knew that you loved me for me
The laughter we shared
The honesty that was like electricity between us
Being able to say one word and all was understood
And being able to say nothing and yet everything at once
The excitement of the idea of being near you if only in my heart

However, I do not miss what you have become
I could do without...
The pain you have caused to those who loved you the most
The tears that I cried because I had lost you to nothingness
The pain that stabbed my heart like a sword at the realization that what was returning to me was nothing like what was before
Knowing what you have become
Knowing that who you are and who you were have never met before
Being certain that all that was between us was a lie
Knowing that I gave you a piece of me that I can never get back

Life will never be the same without you
But I can't help but wonder if life would have been better if I had never had you to begin with