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On my mind:
The girl with the lip ring and blond hair ohhhh shes hott stuff man rawr, what the fuck do I want to do?, Sleep? I wish, more Ashley, I’m happy, bon bon's are good, math class sucks, guitar? who broke my tuning pin?, I don’t want to do school this week, What a great weekend. No really it was amazing.
Let’s see, I have a wheel ß that was the start of my live journal entry. I was then distracted and couldn’t remember what I was going to type. I know it was a very clever thought. I can’t remember it. I hate when that happens. It drives me nuts when I want to say something, then get distracted for one second and I don’t remember it. Oh yeah, I was telling Ashley that she was cute. I wanted something better then cute but I couldn’t think of a word. Isn’t it funny how our language still doesn’t have words that go with certain emotions? Like a good example for this would be lonely. Sometimes people like me get a feeling or used to get feelings of loneliness. Then again I’m surrounded by so many people that are my good friends and you still are lonely. If say you are lonely people will say you aren’t but they don’t understand the emotion you are in. Maybe I’m thinking here to much. Another thing I’ve been thinking about is the song Air - Venus. Today it seems to me that everyone wants to write a love song. They are all the same mostly. Its all about “baby you are so hott lets make a lot of love.” This song is really different. I’ve been thinking about it. I think their point was to use two completely opposites and see how they rely on each other. Or use something doesn’t have a relationship but in actuality does. I don’t know how to express my thought in words. If you want to read it and comment on it, please do so, if not just keep going. Maybe I’m just hyping this to much.
You could be from Venus
I could be from Mars
We would be together
Lovers forever
Care for each other
You could live in the sea
And I could be a bird
We would be together
Lovers forever
Care for each other
If you wear an illusion
I will make it real
We would be together
Lovers forever
Care for each other
If you walk in the sun
I will be your shadow
We would be together
Lovers forever
Care for each other
The rest of this entry is dedicated to Ashley. The reason of this is because; I said I was going to type everything that’s on my mind. Well boy meets girl. Boy likes girl. That’s my story with Ashley. It goes on. I’ve had the chance spend more time this weekend. One thought/memory that sticks out was probably the kissing. No not me kissing her, but she kissing me. I’m going to explain this a bit better. When we started hanging out on Thursday I kept hugging a little here and there. Then I started kissing her cheeks until it all led up to us kissing. Twice at first. Then I kept kissing her cheek and her hands. We were laying there holding hands cuddling and talking. We talked the whole night and morning. It was great. I was making weird noises and going into a little ball. That I have never done in my life. After that her head was on my chest and there was complete silence. My eyes were closed and then I felt a movement on her side. The next thing she kissed my cheek and turned around fast. I thought that was awesome. I was actually speechless. It wasn’t a regular kiss on the cheeks. It was one of those “You just kissed me, this could mean…” The feeling I felt was like “Hey you kissed back!” That moment was indescribable, just like Ashley. She is so different. I’m awe struck. I can’t really describe her. It would take a while. So I’m not going to lie and make this short. She is absolutely special.
P.S. I know a lot of guys are reading this journal. I have a feeling I will be made fun of. I’m just writing what I am thinking. If you persuade to make fun of me for months or days, I will fight you even if you are a cage fighter. Just kidding, I don’t care.