oy, my head
mein kop tut mir vey!
what an insane week. how can it be that my period can make me so, so, so very insane again? i thought i got rid of this after age 15. not my period, the crazies that accompany it. well, they've stuck around in some way or another, but now they are leading me to fits of panic and self-abuse (not the good kind, either) - psychological self-abuse consisting of extreme pessimism and insecurity and desperation. so not pretty.
and then i look up!
and then it all looks down.
and then up again!
and then it's not sunny anymore. so it looks down.
but then the sun comes out! and i decide i am happy once more!
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaagh.
sorry; this isn't exactly the most prosaic of entries, but as i stated before, mein kop tut mir vey in a BAD way right now. ugh AND fug.
what an insane week. how can it be that my period can make me so, so, so very insane again? i thought i got rid of this after age 15. not my period, the crazies that accompany it. well, they've stuck around in some way or another, but now they are leading me to fits of panic and self-abuse (not the good kind, either) - psychological self-abuse consisting of extreme pessimism and insecurity and desperation. so not pretty.
and then i look up!
and then it all looks down.
and then up again!
and then it's not sunny anymore. so it looks down.
but then the sun comes out! and i decide i am happy once more!
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaagh.
sorry; this isn't exactly the most prosaic of entries, but as i stated before, mein kop tut mir vey in a BAD way right now. ugh AND fug.