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grr i couldnt put pictures on here!!!but ill so it later i swear!
so yeah mexico was amazing!!!even though we were only there for like one and a half days!but it was so much fun and i got to see some of my aunts and uncles and cousins!it was great!and i got to eat all this food that i hadnt eaten in like 5 years so i was happy!oh yeah they have people in mexico who sell corn with mayonnaise, sour cream, and hot sauce(not shitty cowboy/ texas hot sauce but real mexican hot sauce that tastes like heaven!!haha) and i ate some!manb i wish i could put pictures up so u could see all the amazing places in mexico!!!its weird cus its so poor and dirty and they dont have all the clean air and trees and shit that they do here but i love it!i feel like if i brought on eof my friends to go with me they wouldnt be able to love and appreciate it as much as i do!well sofi will cus she lived there of course!and sammy too cus she always sees the beauty in things!
its weird cus my grandparents' house seemed so small compared to what i used ot think of it!i remeber the backyard was like a jungle cus they had all these plants and it was so cool!but now it seems so small.i remember i used to think that i could never get a chance to look at all their nice stuff and all their little trinkets that ha some memory with them but now i feel like i could.it doesnt seem so grand like before.their house was still amazing!!!i wanted to take all this random shit like a magent and this little doll that was missing a leg cus i remember playing with them when i was young(i was the one who took her leg off and thne lost i!hehe!) but i didnt.it just felt too weird taking it cus it felt like they had died or something and i was taking it to remind me of them.plus theyd be out of place at our house and their magic would just wear out in this new enviroment.but now i can go look at themn when i go to their house!
and it was cool cus my cousins and my brother and i all talked for like 5 hours about memories and shit and it was so great to just catch up with them. and it made me see how even tho we hadnt seen or heard from each other in like 5 years we still had such a fun time with each other. and it doesnt matter if u lose touch with certain people cus ur still gonna have that bond with them when u do see them!and it made me rethink all of my friendships from memphis and stuff.so yeah it brought hope for the future!!and its cool cus even tho i miss them, i know we'll still be friedns when i got visit and that wont ever change!!!!!!!!so yay!haha
today was such an amazing day!everything that iu always worry about and dread everyday was just perfect today!for example right before lunch i always have to wait like a couple of minutes before my friends get there and i always hate waiting by myself but today vision came and talked to me and i dint have to wait by myself!so yeah it was a good day!
oh yeah also everytime i turned on the radio or heard a song from some show, it was always a song that i knew and loved and it usually reminded me of memphis in some way!so it made me happy!
wow this post is stupid.i just cant put how i great i feel into words....im so scared that tomorrow will be crappy...or normal!i hope its amazing too!!!