i need some place to rest my head
man, i am worn out. practice wasn't physically hard today, but emotionally draining. it seems as though this team is going insane- 3 underclassmen are starting and 3 seniors ride the bench. cool? i don't get it. it's hard to say i don't care anymore...because i really do. i just don't want to put so much effort and heart into something just makes me frustrated and tired and angry.
i wish i had more confidence when i was playing. i wish i had at least better coaching. i wish i was a stronger leader. i wish i didn't sweat so damn much.
mmm...i seem to be whining alot today. sorry kids. there's just a alot of pressure to do well. i feel it from parents, my team, duh the coaches, students, and even teachers. i feel i have to be some sort of incredibly well rounded rennaissance women to earn any kind of respect. does that make sense? it's like if i dont excel is one area everything comes to a crashing halt. damn it. ok, that's not really reasonable but i don't care.
well...there's not much else to say. oh, thanks lin and steff for saving janice and i today. we would have perished without your help. i owe yall one.
ps janice whines alot. it's really annoying. its ok though we are still best friends. except i hate sydney. stupid bitch.
byyyyyyyyye.
i wish i had more confidence when i was playing. i wish i had at least better coaching. i wish i was a stronger leader. i wish i didn't sweat so damn much.
mmm...i seem to be whining alot today. sorry kids. there's just a alot of pressure to do well. i feel it from parents, my team, duh the coaches, students, and even teachers. i feel i have to be some sort of incredibly well rounded rennaissance women to earn any kind of respect. does that make sense? it's like if i dont excel is one area everything comes to a crashing halt. damn it. ok, that's not really reasonable but i don't care.
well...there's not much else to say. oh, thanks lin and steff for saving janice and i today. we would have perished without your help. i owe yall one.
ps janice whines alot. it's really annoying. its ok though we are still best friends. except i hate sydney. stupid bitch.
byyyyyyyyye.