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i am eating a motherfucking poptart right now and fuming mad.
i've got tears BURNING in my eyes. y'know, the kind that don't fall out of your eyes at all, the kind that are just there, burning.
and i did IT again. yeah, THAT it. more scars. i PROMISED me i'd fucking stop. i'm such a goddamn hypocrite.
i should be SO fucking happy. i have a wonderful, amazing guy who LOVES me. he loves EVERYTHING about me. all the fucked up shit that i hate about me, he loves. i have a job, i have aboyfriend, and i'm NOT fucking happy. i'm still doing THIS shit to myself.
WHY can't i be happy? why why why why fucking why?!
......AND i just got fucking poptart jelly on my goddamn sleeve. fuckin' great.
i've got tears BURNING in my eyes. y'know, the kind that don't fall out of your eyes at all, the kind that are just there, burning.
and i did IT again. yeah, THAT it. more scars. i PROMISED me i'd fucking stop. i'm such a goddamn hypocrite.
i should be SO fucking happy. i have a wonderful, amazing guy who LOVES me. he loves EVERYTHING about me. all the fucked up shit that i hate about me, he loves. i have a job, i have aboyfriend, and i'm NOT fucking happy. i'm still doing THIS shit to myself.
WHY can't i be happy? why why why why fucking why?!
......AND i just got fucking poptart jelly on my goddamn sleeve. fuckin' great.