dont be afraid to hurt me.
concider him warned. i said it all. he knows about the past, detroit too. and he's taking the chance.
for what its worth, its nice to be accepted for it all. not that im a horrible person to accept, he just deserves so much better.
im still being an idiot and freaking out. i think its just because, knock on wood, things are settling down and im actually getting back to where i want to be. this would be the worst possible time for a fuck up. really. i cant afford it on so many different levels.
damnit holls i miss you. you're like cell phone challenged, atleast when it comes to answering =) i just wanna know that youre ok. me being there wouldnt make it any better, but it would make me feel a 5x better to know that i WOULD be there to give hugs, and i would be there to cry on... not that you ever crry on the record. just know there's a loser new orleans girl freaking out down here, and mid her freaking out, she'd love you give you a massive massive hug!
i gotta go get pretty for mass. relay is in 6 days, and things are finally looking like together. we finished a majority of the props tonight, so it seems we only have little things left to deal with.
one final note, i know what i said yesterday about eric not being what im used to, and i think i like it better that he's not. i mean yeah, i loved being comefortable and all, but i like the fact that the way he kisses me is goofy. and i like that he picks on me and calls me on being contradictory. i like that i never held someones hand from the driver's seat. he dances with me for no reason and understands all my different sides. he told me that if, after everything else, i do hurt him, i should do so knowing that in his mind, its worth it.
takes one hell of a guy to take me on.
xoxo kel
for what its worth, its nice to be accepted for it all. not that im a horrible person to accept, he just deserves so much better.
im still being an idiot and freaking out. i think its just because, knock on wood, things are settling down and im actually getting back to where i want to be. this would be the worst possible time for a fuck up. really. i cant afford it on so many different levels.
damnit holls i miss you. you're like cell phone challenged, atleast when it comes to answering =) i just wanna know that youre ok. me being there wouldnt make it any better, but it would make me feel a 5x better to know that i WOULD be there to give hugs, and i would be there to cry on... not that you ever crry on the record. just know there's a loser new orleans girl freaking out down here, and mid her freaking out, she'd love you give you a massive massive hug!
i gotta go get pretty for mass. relay is in 6 days, and things are finally looking like together. we finished a majority of the props tonight, so it seems we only have little things left to deal with.
one final note, i know what i said yesterday about eric not being what im used to, and i think i like it better that he's not. i mean yeah, i loved being comefortable and all, but i like the fact that the way he kisses me is goofy. and i like that he picks on me and calls me on being contradictory. i like that i never held someones hand from the driver's seat. he dances with me for no reason and understands all my different sides. he told me that if, after everything else, i do hurt him, i should do so knowing that in his mind, its worth it.
takes one hell of a guy to take me on.
xoxo kel