we made promises we couldn't keep...
it was the first time in my life where i did something right.
i set myself up for the greatest fall of all time...
we played 20 questions tonight, sheer boredom. i thought anthony was oblivious, kinda consumed with his own bullshit, but i was wrong. we made the "rule" at the beginning that if someone was caught lying, the truth could be revealed by anyone who knew the real deal. great way to keep the answers honest, well i thought at least. anyways, he flat out asked me: so how did it feel to get your heart broken?
i wasn't sure if i dreamt that question, but when i saw the random eyeballs looking at me, i realized it was really asked. i didn't answer. didn't have to really, everyone started asking questions and we all lost count.
caught, for the first time. the girls were sitting right there, they knew the truth. i couldnt have lied if i wanted to. i had to spill my guts, the whole story, halloween thru april 8th.
"sometimes, people put up walls to see who cares enough to break them down"
tonight, i was reminded of 13 people i shut out of my life because im fucking selfish. i always think that shutting my problems inside my head is sparing other people the trouble of hearing about my shit. i never realized that it upsets people when i shut them out.
to all of you reading this, im sorry. i never meant to offend you by not updating you or not "crying alll over (your) shirt." yall mean the world to me and i value your presence more than you will ever know. i'll work on it, on keeping my heart pink... no more black lol. (there was a comment made that my heart was turning into black cement because i keep all my hurts inside... lol yall are crazy!)
anyways, no more secrets. you heard the truth. scroll back a few weeks and you can read my thoughts as things were unfolding.
on to happier subjects!
i got a significant text last night... i miss you punk, im so glad things are fun up there! be careful!!
and i talked to my yankee bitch this morning... =) countdown!!!!
annnddd i started packing for the cruise! double yay!
while we had our bonding circle today, i had to confess about eric. im not sure what the deal is there. i really dont want to know at this point, i kinda like things how they're going right now. confused, slightly. amused, of course. happy, absolutely. no long distance relationships for me, i need a single summer, but i really hope things continue like they are now. i was told to expect phonecalls this week, and he's on vactaion, so who knows what that means.
based on the past, guys really have to give a damn to call while they're on vacation.
so someone fill me in....
goofing off for a semester.
talking instead of hooking up.
him kissing mary.
kissing me later that week.
leaving for the summer.
calling me everyday.
should i be alarmed?
going to pack.... sorry for the randomness!!
shan- i misssssssss you!!!!
xoxo kel
i set myself up for the greatest fall of all time...
we played 20 questions tonight, sheer boredom. i thought anthony was oblivious, kinda consumed with his own bullshit, but i was wrong. we made the "rule" at the beginning that if someone was caught lying, the truth could be revealed by anyone who knew the real deal. great way to keep the answers honest, well i thought at least. anyways, he flat out asked me: so how did it feel to get your heart broken?
i wasn't sure if i dreamt that question, but when i saw the random eyeballs looking at me, i realized it was really asked. i didn't answer. didn't have to really, everyone started asking questions and we all lost count.
caught, for the first time. the girls were sitting right there, they knew the truth. i couldnt have lied if i wanted to. i had to spill my guts, the whole story, halloween thru april 8th.
"sometimes, people put up walls to see who cares enough to break them down"
tonight, i was reminded of 13 people i shut out of my life because im fucking selfish. i always think that shutting my problems inside my head is sparing other people the trouble of hearing about my shit. i never realized that it upsets people when i shut them out.
to all of you reading this, im sorry. i never meant to offend you by not updating you or not "crying alll over (your) shirt." yall mean the world to me and i value your presence more than you will ever know. i'll work on it, on keeping my heart pink... no more black lol. (there was a comment made that my heart was turning into black cement because i keep all my hurts inside... lol yall are crazy!)
anyways, no more secrets. you heard the truth. scroll back a few weeks and you can read my thoughts as things were unfolding.
on to happier subjects!
i got a significant text last night... i miss you punk, im so glad things are fun up there! be careful!!
and i talked to my yankee bitch this morning... =) countdown!!!!
annnddd i started packing for the cruise! double yay!
while we had our bonding circle today, i had to confess about eric. im not sure what the deal is there. i really dont want to know at this point, i kinda like things how they're going right now. confused, slightly. amused, of course. happy, absolutely. no long distance relationships for me, i need a single summer, but i really hope things continue like they are now. i was told to expect phonecalls this week, and he's on vactaion, so who knows what that means.
based on the past, guys really have to give a damn to call while they're on vacation.
so someone fill me in....
goofing off for a semester.
talking instead of hooking up.
him kissing mary.
kissing me later that week.
leaving for the summer.
calling me everyday.
should i be alarmed?
going to pack.... sorry for the randomness!!
shan- i misssssssss you!!!!
xoxo kel