::sighs:: and many of them too..
so my weekend has been a bit of a dissapointment. i was hoping to hang out with a lot of people but has been spent working. when i do manage to ahngout its really late at nite which cuases me to get less sleep and then it affects me at work when im all out of it and drained.
i went out to see final destination 3 tonite with Mike D. his gf and a friend og his. it was fun. we were sarounded by a bunch of black people so you know there was a lot of screaming, loud, and especially a lot of " NO girl, you dumb, LOOK OUT!!!" haha good times.
after i headed over tot he frat hsoeu where they ahd a little party for allt eh enw guys, for thsoe of yout aht donw know i took a leave for the sememester cuase i want to jsut concentrate with school and working and paying of shit i oew them. well, lately int he past weeks ive been asking myself if i evn realy want to return, i jstu dont see myself doing this anymore, and it seems to jsut be falling part. it was fun while it alsted, and its jsut not the same liek it was my first year. i dunno..maybe i should ne bithcing baout no changes sinceim not trying to do anythignt o change in it, but it seems like everytime we do progress, it takes that cuople guys to fuck it all up.
ex: tonite there was nothign but fucken plastered guys, drunked girls, guys direspecting girls, girls coming upt o me and scremainga t me, and jstu a big disaster. a good time went from good, to bad. people crying, other angry, and new memerb already rethingking joining. WTF?!?! UGH@ i dont eve know why i cared to solve the big fukcne mess and jsut cut the party and tele veryone to go home, iwa s the only sober one there and jstu swaw that people were just getting out of control. i was about to cal Aaron(the president) and ask him where the fucke he was at and how all thiss h was jsut going on, but watever, i didnt try.
so tontie basically just served as a biger excuse to maybe push my "leave of absence" to a leave for antoher semester to jstu eventually quiting. its not wat i want any more. maybe it'll cahnge, maybe it wont. i wonder and ask myself wat it would of been like if i would of joined the other frat that i had looked into. i see them at school, they seem liek so much of a tighter gruo, never seem to argue, or be mad at eachotehr and have a good time with no fucken drama. They di portray brotherhood and everything that my frat seems to be lsoing or have already lost...i dunno...id woner, wuting and joingin another gruop, yet i know it woul dbe wrong and my guys would fucken have a big fucken piss fit. i dunno..im still debating, but i shouldnt even be caring, school is going good, tomoro wi need to work on homework and art projects...and....
..i finally founa abuyer for the mustang. a friends mom wants to buy it for her other son or for her, either way..its sold. and well..its gonna be gone rpetty soon, im saddened, yet..at ease, cuase at least someone will actually use it and not jsut have it sittng arounf liek we woul dof had...hmm...
::sigh::
its almost 3, an di have work at 9. GRR. oh well...money pays the bills.
anyways, im venting..if you read, thank you, if u dont, watever
<3 jerry
i went out to see final destination 3 tonite with Mike D. his gf and a friend og his. it was fun. we were sarounded by a bunch of black people so you know there was a lot of screaming, loud, and especially a lot of " NO girl, you dumb, LOOK OUT!!!" haha good times.
after i headed over tot he frat hsoeu where they ahd a little party for allt eh enw guys, for thsoe of yout aht donw know i took a leave for the sememester cuase i want to jsut concentrate with school and working and paying of shit i oew them. well, lately int he past weeks ive been asking myself if i evn realy want to return, i jstu dont see myself doing this anymore, and it seems to jsut be falling part. it was fun while it alsted, and its jsut not the same liek it was my first year. i dunno..maybe i should ne bithcing baout no changes sinceim not trying to do anythignt o change in it, but it seems like everytime we do progress, it takes that cuople guys to fuck it all up.
ex: tonite there was nothign but fucken plastered guys, drunked girls, guys direspecting girls, girls coming upt o me and scremainga t me, and jstu a big disaster. a good time went from good, to bad. people crying, other angry, and new memerb already rethingking joining. WTF?!?! UGH@ i dont eve know why i cared to solve the big fukcne mess and jsut cut the party and tele veryone to go home, iwa s the only sober one there and jstu swaw that people were just getting out of control. i was about to cal Aaron(the president) and ask him where the fucke he was at and how all thiss h was jsut going on, but watever, i didnt try.
so tontie basically just served as a biger excuse to maybe push my "leave of absence" to a leave for antoher semester to jstu eventually quiting. its not wat i want any more. maybe it'll cahnge, maybe it wont. i wonder and ask myself wat it would of been like if i would of joined the other frat that i had looked into. i see them at school, they seem liek so much of a tighter gruo, never seem to argue, or be mad at eachotehr and have a good time with no fucken drama. They di portray brotherhood and everything that my frat seems to be lsoing or have already lost...i dunno...id woner, wuting and joingin another gruop, yet i know it woul dbe wrong and my guys would fucken have a big fucken piss fit. i dunno..im still debating, but i shouldnt even be caring, school is going good, tomoro wi need to work on homework and art projects...and....
..i finally founa abuyer for the mustang. a friends mom wants to buy it for her other son or for her, either way..its sold. and well..its gonna be gone rpetty soon, im saddened, yet..at ease, cuase at least someone will actually use it and not jsut have it sittng arounf liek we woul dof had...hmm...
::sigh::
its almost 3, an di have work at 9. GRR. oh well...money pays the bills.
anyways, im venting..if you read, thank you, if u dont, watever
<3 jerry