Can't Sleep
I hate being so stressed when I'm not even in school or anything. I need to start dancing again. THat's the only way I can get EVERYTHING off my mind for that small amount of time it takes in a dance class. I hate this. I can't sleep and I feel sick to my stomach. I think I'm going to stay up all night. I don't like being the one that everyone hurts. I just always put my heart out for everyone to break. Without my dancing, the only way to make myself feel better is to go throw up. I'm on track to the way I used to be sophomore year. I feel like I'm still in high school.
Landa and I were watching Romy and Michele's high school reunion last night and I was thinking. I don't think I'm gonna go to my 10 year reunion or any of them. When I look back on it, high school was miserable. Some friends just made things worse, boyfriends are so hard to have in high school because of all the shitty drama. Stupid popular people who are all the same and who walk all over the "smaller" people like copying homework and such. High School sucked. I wish I could move far away and never have to come back. I did learn a lot in high school about a lot of people. You really see who your real friends are. I learned I didn't really have that many. But the ones I have now are the best friends I could ask for.
Landa and I were watching Romy and Michele's high school reunion last night and I was thinking. I don't think I'm gonna go to my 10 year reunion or any of them. When I look back on it, high school was miserable. Some friends just made things worse, boyfriends are so hard to have in high school because of all the shitty drama. Stupid popular people who are all the same and who walk all over the "smaller" people like copying homework and such. High School sucked. I wish I could move far away and never have to come back. I did learn a lot in high school about a lot of people. You really see who your real friends are. I learned I didn't really have that many. But the ones I have now are the best friends I could ask for.