it's not that i was speeding, it's just that I got caught this time.
Im taking a AAA class to shave off points I acquired Saturday night.
that was a super shitty ending to an otherwise amazing night. to top it all off, for some reason my grades are slipping? I spoke too soon when I said I was doing well. The irony is, I've been working harder than I have ever been. I also heard that Corzine is planning to take some odd million dollars from the Rutgers budget to fund his business projects. I need money. First I had to pay 900+ dollars for being stupid with my car. and now 220 dollars for a ticket, again for being stupid with my car. what the hell is going on with me?
I dont want to do anything! The more I go to shows, the more I get so down about doing what Im doing because all I can think about is how extremely happy I am for those 3-5 hours of time. 99% of me wishes I had the talent and I was on that stage, touring across the country, making people smile through my music and onstage antics; being as far from the hospital as I could, not worrying about the right IV drip rate, care plans, and maintaining a sterile field. Or I could just be that girl in the front taking photos of the band. I would equally be happy. Nothing makes me happier than being at a show and if I could, I would go to as much as I can. but no, i worry about getting to class or clinicals in time.
being a fan (WITHOUT DRAMA) is probably the best thing in the world. if there ever was a job that would consist of just being a fan, I would be the perfect candidate. but I want more. i need more. I think, I just figured out why I love it so much (besides the amazing music)... Is it because I never feel lonely at a show? Even though I dont know anyone? I feel involved and for those very few precious moments when the singer and I make eye contact, I feel like Im apart of something big and special, that im important, and that I matter in those 10 seconds of time. I watched the audience the other night and their interaction with the band on stage was beautiful, so much so that I actually got that warm fuzzy feeling.
if I could be anywhere right now, I would be in a sold out house with a few awesome bands doing a raw, loud, high energy show. no big production with wires, pyro and skits; just fans and a band... maybe some bubbles...
http://www.myspace.com/lalkha if you want to read specifics about the show I went to.
If I were to talk about Nursing, I would say that I still want the job for Sloan Kettering. I have to wait one more week to see if they will call me if I got the job. I have an interview with NYU on the 14th. And I'm still waiting to hear from NY Presb. Robert Wood interview is tomorrow. I wish I was more excited but... ahrg...
that was a super shitty ending to an otherwise amazing night. to top it all off, for some reason my grades are slipping? I spoke too soon when I said I was doing well. The irony is, I've been working harder than I have ever been. I also heard that Corzine is planning to take some odd million dollars from the Rutgers budget to fund his business projects. I need money. First I had to pay 900+ dollars for being stupid with my car. and now 220 dollars for a ticket, again for being stupid with my car. what the hell is going on with me?
I dont want to do anything! The more I go to shows, the more I get so down about doing what Im doing because all I can think about is how extremely happy I am for those 3-5 hours of time. 99% of me wishes I had the talent and I was on that stage, touring across the country, making people smile through my music and onstage antics; being as far from the hospital as I could, not worrying about the right IV drip rate, care plans, and maintaining a sterile field. Or I could just be that girl in the front taking photos of the band. I would equally be happy. Nothing makes me happier than being at a show and if I could, I would go to as much as I can. but no, i worry about getting to class or clinicals in time.
being a fan (WITHOUT DRAMA) is probably the best thing in the world. if there ever was a job that would consist of just being a fan, I would be the perfect candidate. but I want more. i need more. I think, I just figured out why I love it so much (besides the amazing music)... Is it because I never feel lonely at a show? Even though I dont know anyone? I feel involved and for those very few precious moments when the singer and I make eye contact, I feel like Im apart of something big and special, that im important, and that I matter in those 10 seconds of time. I watched the audience the other night and their interaction with the band on stage was beautiful, so much so that I actually got that warm fuzzy feeling.
if I could be anywhere right now, I would be in a sold out house with a few awesome bands doing a raw, loud, high energy show. no big production with wires, pyro and skits; just fans and a band... maybe some bubbles...
http://www.myspace.com/lalkha if you want to read specifics about the show I went to.
If I were to talk about Nursing, I would say that I still want the job for Sloan Kettering. I have to wait one more week to see if they will call me if I got the job. I have an interview with NYU on the 14th. And I'm still waiting to hear from NY Presb. Robert Wood interview is tomorrow. I wish I was more excited but... ahrg...