[insert subject here, i guess]
So. Not-so-quietly freaking out about my first expressive test for my last sign-language class. We have to record ourselves, and although we do have a digital camera capable at home - I'm worried that my not-so-smooth relationship with my mother lately (the owner of the camera) might interfere or harm my grade somehow. So, my anxiety is completely consuming me, and it's rather hard for me to concentrate on what to type at the moment because of the attack I'm semi-having.
I think I'm going to try to get a camera from classroom services anyway (and I probably won't relax until I do). It isn't that my mom and I aren't getting along (just to clarify that), but she tends to be wishy-washy, and ... I never know what to expect from her. Most of it's probably my fault. I don't know. I always tend to feel it's my fault, or I don't try hard enough, or I've done something wrong. Probably there's something psychiatrically wrong with that - but whatever. I just sometimes feel that no matter what I do, it isn't good enough.
I think I've found the subject matter for my first book.
Hope she isn't offended.
Anyway, to anyone that bothers to read this, prayer would be good. A lot of it.
Thanks,
K
I think I'm going to try to get a camera from classroom services anyway (and I probably won't relax until I do). It isn't that my mom and I aren't getting along (just to clarify that), but she tends to be wishy-washy, and ... I never know what to expect from her. Most of it's probably my fault. I don't know. I always tend to feel it's my fault, or I don't try hard enough, or I've done something wrong. Probably there's something psychiatrically wrong with that - but whatever. I just sometimes feel that no matter what I do, it isn't good enough.
I think I've found the subject matter for my first book.
Hope she isn't offended.
Anyway, to anyone that bothers to read this, prayer would be good. A lot of it.
Thanks,
K