raised to be lowered

[klaw]

"For as far back as I can remember, I had always been a frenzied teaser, but had never looked at why. Now I knew. I teased to control. Why would I want to control? Because I am afraid. For whatever reason, I have had a long-standing fear of others. One way of dealing with this fear was to learn the skill of teasing. I learned it well, eventually walling myself off with a bristling armor of barbed banter designed to blunt the power of those countless people I felt threatened by. My teasing became a weapon intended to push others off balance and thus reduce the sense of menace in my life." --Gordon MacKenzie
While I like who I am, and who I could become... I am insatiably curious about the alternate mes I could be, and what they could have become.