Being almost 27

Jun 06, 2012 13:22

So here is what I have observed, everyone between the ages of 26-30 are very focused on their body image.

Myself included has become much more aware of my weight and the way I feel. I have always been full figured and really until recently I haven't been too overly focused about how people see me or being "fat". Ultimately I want to be healthy and have the ability to possibly have a child after 30 if I so choose. Obesity runs in my family and my grandfather basically died of complications from it and my mother has thyroid disease and had a horrible time maintaining a healthy weight. So my choice to better myself is for those reasons but I find it very difficult seeing posts after posts after posts online about so and so working out and so and so losing this much weight. Not that posting those things are bad it is my self issues that have trouble reading them not the people that post them. To me in my brain seeing them makes it a game, makes it competition and let's be real I don't like competing with someone else beauty. All of the posts are meant to be uplifting and make people feel a sense of community but for me it is having the opposite effect I feel worse about myself.I clearly have some inner turmoil about this subject because why does social media have me all in a tizy about the way I look? Why am I being harder on myself about my own beauty at the age of 26? Why do I second guess myself after posting about my exercise and wonder if it is making someone else feel bad that they didn't? There are few people in this world that I even feel comfortable talking about my image. Clearly I have had self confidence issues in this department all of my life, like most girls, but usually I would push it to the back of my brain. Now, with it being brought up everyday online or at work it is pretty hard to avoid.

So here is what I am saying to myself.... Michelle you are beautiful and if you never lose another pound you will still be beautiful. Eating less and exercising make you feel good no one else and you will stop with the guilt bullshit. Other peoples actions do not define you or make your weight or goals a competition. If someone wants to talk to you about their tricks or maybe what you should try to eat and you don't feel like talking about it, say so. Also, be mindful of your words since it effects you so much it probably does to someone else too. Just because they insist that it works or that if you just did this it would help doesn't make your plan any less effective. And if your plan changes so be it. If your plan doesn't make you drop tons of weight it is what matters at the time, do you feel good about yourself?
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