Jul 17, 2005 11:59
First of all, yes I'm still alive. Let me just cut to the chase. I finished my first year in grad school!! And they're giving me money to come back! That's always a good thing. For those of you not in grad school, funding is not guaranteed to everyone. Anyway, I'm doing independent study courses for the summer. Religion and politics and black voting behavior.
I feel really good about the recent revelations in my life. For those of you who know me pretty well, I'm a very spiritual/religious person. I feel like God has given me a breakthrough in friendships I've had with people that didn't quite work out. Regardless of who's fault the "fall-out" was, I had complete control over how I handled the situation afterwards. At first I was like, "oh well I'm moving on" and washed my hands of them. But in my heart I knew that wasn't the right thing to do. Over the past week, I've had the opportunity to make good on the wrong I've done in terms of cutting off all contacts with them. I can't tell you the weight that's been lifted off my shoulders. Quite simply, the lesson is that "life is too short for unforgiveness and petty things like not talking to people b/c they did something wrong to you". I can't imagine the hurt people may have caused each of you, but it will truly bless your life to take heed to what I am saying.
As I've said before and truly believe now, we have no control over the way people treat us but complete control over the way we respond to their actions. It was weird b/c I thought I had moved on, but when you get mad just thinking about a past situation, you realize that you haven't really moved on. Looking back, that is the most obvious thing to me now. I felt the need to say these things b/c I'm sure we've all had to deal with situations like that. We're all pretty young. We have our whole lives ahead of us (Lord willing), and it's no need holding ourselves back from blessings simply b/c we won't forgive. Think of all the blessings you have missed or are missing out on b/c of unforgiveness and unwillingness to make amends. I can only imagine. Sorry for the soapbox speech, but that's my entry for today. Take care, love yourselves as well as each other.
-Kim