the vortex.
everyone here speaks of it. the eugene vortex. it sucks you in, and you feel like everything you'll ever need is in this big-little town filled with hippies and meth-heads. some have been stuck in eugene their whole life. some leave, but they always come back. While others have been successful in their escapes. but ALL talk about the fucking eugene vortex.
and i'm stuck in it. i want to leave but i'm stuck, but mostly scared.
people know me here. a lot of people know me here. it's weird. it's been 2 1/2 years and i am known and i love it.
do i really want to start all over again? in a new city? being lost with knowing not many people? no job. And worst of all, no william.
Portland is huge. HUGE. but big cities mean opportunity. more excitement. i have NO opportunity in Eugene. no career goals. Fuck, i'm still looking for what i want to be when i grow up. William would understand, and we'd have to do the weekend thing. but fuck, i just don't know.
i have grown so much living in this pothead filled town. i know i fucked up a lot in my past, and the people here have really helped me find me. lol. But if i continue to stay, i'm afraid i'm going to plateau.
tell me what to do lj friends!
and i'm stuck in it. i want to leave but i'm stuck, but mostly scared.
people know me here. a lot of people know me here. it's weird. it's been 2 1/2 years and i am known and i love it.
do i really want to start all over again? in a new city? being lost with knowing not many people? no job. And worst of all, no william.
Portland is huge. HUGE. but big cities mean opportunity. more excitement. i have NO opportunity in Eugene. no career goals. Fuck, i'm still looking for what i want to be when i grow up. William would understand, and we'd have to do the weekend thing. but fuck, i just don't know.
i have grown so much living in this pothead filled town. i know i fucked up a lot in my past, and the people here have really helped me find me. lol. But if i continue to stay, i'm afraid i'm going to plateau.
tell me what to do lj friends!